summer 2010

i have to say i have some of the bestest friends in the world. throwing me an going away party, with every single thing that i could have imagined...not easy. leaving is always bittersweet for me. i mean i want to go back to the greatest city ever, but im really gonna miss my friends here at home. these are the kids i grew up with. the kids who have seen me and my best and worst. the kids who know me better than i know myself. i love them. they really know how to help me start with my best foot forward.
and even my friends who weren't there, i love you guys too. it's wonderful knowing i have friends at both home and school who love me soo fucking much. you know how to cheer me up and make me laugh and do the little things that just brighten up my day. i really do love you all. and im soo glad i have you guys in my life. i wouldn't be the person i am today, without each and every single one of you.
summer 2010 was great, but now it's time for me to start a new chapter of my life...sophomore year fall semester. i ended the summer on the best note possible, but all good things come to an end. soon ill be back in class listening to lecture, studying in the library, and being my coffee addict self. today is my last day in hoco. so goodbye hoco and hello 10003...aka new york city.


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James.

so last night i was at a party. and this one kid is obsessed with me, id rather not give names because who knows, he might be reading this thing. before the party i told James to make sure i don't do anything with the kid. and if i lead him on, then we would make out (we being James and i). anyhow. i did not wanna get with the kid, he did not feel the same way. so i told my friend James to keep an eye on me so i don't do anything stupid, like lead the guy on. anyhow. the kid was talking to me and i was like i can't do this so i walked away. and James saw all of this happen and we made out, so the kid would get the idea. he didn't, instead he wanted to fight James.



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oh dear. talk about FML

so im atheist, for those that don't know. and for those that do know, it's pretty obvious why. right? yeah i think so. make that i know so. anyhow. last night i was out a little late...well to be honest, very late. i came home around three in the morning. and i was up by 11, but at that time my parents were like we're gonna go to gurdwara...sikh's place of worship. and i was hungover...they didn't know that, thankfully. so i went there hungover and it was fucking torture. sitting down in some place with people singing and everything being about god PLUS my me + my atheist ass + me hungover...aka not a fucking good idea. anyway. i survived. anyway. i have two days left in the HoCo. im really gonna miss these house parties and these kids.


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Patriots vs. Falcons

one day this week i can't remember which day, i was at a party and made a song. please note i was very very drunk. we were all watching the Patriots and Falcons game. and i was taking a shot for every time the Falcons scored, one shot for field goals and two for touchdowns. that was not getting me drunk fast enough lol. the final score was like 28-9 Patriots....AKA three shots. so during the game some friends and i decided to start up some tequila pong. boy was that fun. and i was doing that Rebecca texted me and i didn't have my phone. so James was talking to her. and who knows what the fuck he said to her.
all i have to say is im so glad it's football season!



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she packed my BRAIN!

i've been a horrible blogger lately. and i mean really horrible. im sorry, but im getting caught up with seeing everyone before i go back to school. last night Lisa came over and im positive right when she came, she packed my fucking brain. so at first we were just talking but then i went crazy...make that WE went crazy. and when Lisa + Priya + crazy happens....all you can do is fucking hope that we don't pull any of our shenanigans. but obviously it's us...we are gonna pull our shenanigans. anyway. we made this rap song that's just really fucking awesome. if you wanna see it add me on facebook. and obviously we took like a bunch of pictures. we're picture people. haha. anyway. i added all this stuff on to facebook. and after she left my mom asked me "what did you pack?" (Lisa was supposed to help me pack, but clearly that did not happen.) before i answered she saw that i was looking at a video on facebook. and it was the one of me that Lisa recorded. and she asked, "what did you pack?! your BRAIN?"
turns out i really did pack my fucking brain.
so i was up till like three in the morning doing fucking laundry. and i got ONE fucking load done. ONE! that's right. just ONE! first i put a load in at like midnight. or something around then. and when it finished i realized i didn't put any detergent in it because we didn't have any in the house, they were in the garage! so i had to re-do that fucking load. and then....when it finished again i put it in the dryer and it took two fucking hours for the fucking shit to fucking dry because i forgot to take out the goddamn motherfucking lint!
i really did pack my brain.



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Brian.

so yesterday Brian came over. and we talked about every single thing ever possible. we talked about how him and Natalie are done. and we talked ALOT about Rebecca. ooo and i straightened his hair. hahaha. and we just talked for like hours. and im pretty sure he's officially gonna visit me over labor day weekend. and then we talked a lot about football. the steelers suck. suck like major major major cock. FUCK THE STEELERS! we talked about my Atlantic City story. and i heard quite a few of drunk Brian stories. Brian and Rebecca really need to hook up. like for real. Geoffery and i have it all figured out. we're just gonna lose them on accident. hahaha. it will be awesome. like so epic. i can just picture it. Geoffery and i were also talking about how their kids would look! like seriously...talk about gorgeous kids.



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Atlantic City part II

ive been a HORRIBLE blogger for the past few days. but i have a legit reason, ATLANTIC CITY!!!! haha yes i went again. and boy do i have a story for you all. so remember that guy at the bar from last time. well this time i ran into him AGAIN! his name is Dave by the way lol. and turned out that he didn't "go for me" because i was texting Brian for awhile and he thought that Brian was my boytoy. but i immediately set him straight on that. we started talking and such and i didn't really drink that much on Saturday night. just a few shots. and then i totally tapped that shit. and ohhh myyy goddd. that was like the best sex that i have EVER had. i mean seriously. sooo fucking good. he is how all future fuck buddies will be measured. i was in his room that night until about five in the fucking morning. haha. then i headed back to my room. on Sunday i hung out with my mom during the day, shopping of course, and then ate dinner with the family. that night. omg. we got uber drunk. i had five dirty bananas in five minutes. then a rum screwdriver. and then four patrons. we were both really drunk by this point. so we were trying to sober up before fucking again. lol. so we decided to play a little and i have no clue what it is called, but we played that game where you have a ball and then throw it on the little round thing and you guess the number. it was pretty fun and we were getting cheap drinks so the sobering up wasn't working too well. anyhow. that night...talk about amazing sex. like the best you have ever had. soo soo soo good.
turns out that he goes to Duke and is a graduate student in mechanical engineering. and he's anti-social networking sites...aka facebook. and he's a total asshole...which is my type because they are good in bed...but i didn't know that this good was possible. anyway. he's an ass and smart...sooo great. and totally turns me on.
in the end it was a great trip.


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Mike.

there are some people in your life who you meet and then you realize how amazing they are. you realize it a day late and a dollar short. there is one guy i know who i really respect. most guys that i know sleep around which i don't mind at all, but this guy is pretty awesome. he only slept with one girl which i think is pretty amazing. im sure he has had his chances but just refused. he's really attractive. but i just think that is really sweet. he is so sweet its unbelievable. he cares so much about others and likes to put his friends before him, which i respect so much. he is also one of the funniest people i know. and always knows how to put a smile on my face. no matter how fucked up my day is he knows how to get my smile out. and not just me, anyone and everyone. and damn i love him. im really gonna miss not seeing him at NYU. so Mike im not sure whether or not you read this, and im pretty sure you don't but if you do, just know how much i love and respect you. you are truly a wonderful and any girl is lucky to be with you.



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Brian the fucking motherfucker.

fucking Brian. hes such a fucking motherfucker! he was supposed to come over today, but since i am typing this know, i think you all know he is not here and did not come over today. he isn't here because his mom found a 30 in his room and got pissed as fuck. anyway. i did see Lisa today which was very nice. got i miss her and love her. and tomorrow is my last day of work for the summer. =[. i love work....for the most part that is. so ill have more time to see everyone. i can't wait till i get up to new york city!! only like 12 days left!


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Paul.

today i hung out with Paul. for those that don't know i fucking love Paul. and i hadn't seen him since like october maybe november. damn i missed him being in my life. and so far the no drinking is going well. anyway. Paul and i talked about everything fucking possible. his hookups, my hookups, and pretty much everything in between. such a fucking awesome kid.



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day four.

i don't remember if i mentioned this. but since friday night/saturday morning i have not had a single drink. Rebecca left for Canada on Saturday and i told her i wouldn't get drunk until she got back. and today is day four. and so far i am successful. it hasn't been that hard because every night im hanging out with my friends so it's really working out. =]



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Katie time

today i hung out with my girl Katie. it was mad fun. we just sat and talked and watched friends and then decided at 10 to watch Avatar. it was the first time for both her and me. and also her sister Jenny. and for those that don't know, that is one long ass movie. it was decent. not the greatest not the worst, but decent. although the special effects were extremely extremely extremely well done. anyway. it was just really nice catching up with her and her family.



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drunk driving.

if there is one thing in the world i hate, that would be drunk drivers. i fucking hate them. and people who drive drunk need to learn some shit. i've had sooo many friends die too young because of this ridiculous shit. and it's to the point where i can't fucking deal with it.
when i was 14 my best friend and her family were coming to visit my family and me. she never made it to me. at fucking 11:30 in the goddamn motherfucking morning someone was drunk and didn't stop at the red light and hit my best friends car head on. all four of them passed away. that was the worst time of my life.
i don't have any respect for people that drink and drive. none whatsoever. they need to learn something. they themselves don't need to do something, but they should learn from some other person's experience(s).
it's never too late to change.


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Steve Dankos.

Steven Joseph Dankos. i know you're looking down at the world from where you are. you're in a better place. today i saw this movie, Charlie St. Cloud, and it really reminded me of you. during the entire movie i was thinking about you and how sometimes life just doesn't do justice. Steve, i miss you soo much. i miss seeing you at parties and chilling with you and how you made everyone laugh soo soo soo much. you're really missed. im so glad i had the opportunity to meet and know you. you were and are one of the nicest guys out there. we had many good times. damn i wished you had called me that awful night. you know i would have come to you so fast. i love you and miss you so much.
you're forever loved and always in our hearts.
R.I.P.


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stuff

Rebecca is leaving my ass again!!!!! what the fuck. i know right. it's ridic. she went to cancun for two weeks and now this. this is unacceptable. but anyway. i have made a deal with myself. from tomorrow to next saturday i will not get drunk. today is not the same case. today im going all out. woohoo. party party party. ohh and im soo fucking kicking Brian's ass. i can't deal with him right now. ughh. he's being a motherfucker. he won't visit me in nyc =[. but hopefully ill convince him.


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last night

yesterday i talked to Rebecca for a long while. and i also texted drunk Brian. god i fucking love drunk Brian. we were talking about him visiting me and i also told him me and Rebecca were talking about him and this is what he said "no bus is good haha reeally what are you guys talking about and im much better in a swim suit" someone wants to get with Rebecca and its gonna fucking happen.


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my parents

i love getting stuff in the mail. it's like the best thing ever. during my first year at school, my parents always sent me care packages. they were the best things ever. i got sent Coach bags, food, and so much other stuff. i love their care packages. there is just something soo personal about them. they mean so much to me. and i know i probably don't say it enough, but i love my parents and everything that they have done for me. they've sacrificed a lot for me, and im soo thankful for that. they have given me everything that i have ever needed. they are the most amazing people ever fucking possible. and i am soo thankful for them.



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Atlantic City

so im back from Atlantic City now. and boy do i have a story for you lovely people. my family and i were staying in Showboat. anyway. it was like ten and i was tired from a whole day of shopping with my mom...although we didn't really buy anything. anyway. so we were back in the hotel room at like ten. and i was like im going to sleep. and my mom wasn't tired so she was like well if you're going to sleep then do you mind if i go down and play a little. and i was like no that's fine! anyway. she left. and then i got un-tired. so i was like maybe i'll go down to the bar, which was in the casino. and i did. and the drinks were two bucks. so i got like four poppers. for those who are unfamiliar with this term, it's tequila and 7up. and this guy was sitting next to me. really cute by the way. like uber uber uber cute. and i wasn't just thinking that because i was drunk. lol. we started talking and he was like im gonna buy you three of my drinks. and i was like what's your drank. he said dirty bananas! and i was like omg omg omg! that is like by best friend, Brian's drank!! so i texted Brian to tell him. anyway. i wanted to take a picture with this guy. the bartender saw me take my camera out, and was like don't even try to miss. and i was like what?!?!?! and he was like no pictures. you're not allowed to take pictures in the actual casino part because of card counting and what not. anyway i was flipping shit. i was like why the fuck can't i take a picture with the guy i love and i gave him a kiss on the cheek. and the bartender was like no. and then i really flipped shit. and the bartender was damn girl stop it's not my rule! and he gave me three poppers on the house! in the end it was a pretty damn good vacation!!!



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