thanks

yesterday, i was having issues with doing the pre-lab for my chemistry lab that was today. so i texted my friend, Craig, to see if he had done it and he hadn't. so he was like come over in half an hour, which i did. when i was in his room something on his desk caught my attention. it was a letter from his best friend; in one short word it was a thanks. a thanks for everything he did for her, how he helped her through the good, the bad and the ugly, how much he means to her, how much she loves him, and how great full she is for him to be in her life. it showed how much love someone can have for another without being in love, which we really need a lot more of in this world.
this letter was probably one of the two nicest things i have ever seen somebody write. the other being what this girl, Jordan, wrote for her eulogy when her best friend, Steve, one of my friends, past away. people, whenever you have something to say to someone just say it. please. you never know when it just might be too late, which in Jordan's case it was. if there's something you need to say don't wait, you never know what turns life might bring about.
back to his letter. when i read it i was almost put to tears. very rarely does someone receive something this meaningful. im glad i had the opportunity to read the letter Craig received. when i told him that's one of the sweetest things id ever read, he said "yeah isn't it? but im over it now." how anyone simply gets over something like that is beyond me.



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my mother

so today when i was sitting in chemistry lecture i received this text from my mom, "hi i just wanted to say i miss you and i have no one to do my nails with." every spring break my mom and i do each others nails; not just painting them but also adding designs and shit. so anyway i said something along the lines of "aww im sorry" and my mom replied to me with "im bored." and i said "im bored too" and my mom was like "why," and i said "im sitting in chemistry lecture and i've already learned this stuff." here is when things take a turn my mother, who is a teacher herself, tells me to ditch the class. and i tell her i cant because the professor is gonna take attendance. and then she says "alright bye" and im like "what? why are you leaving?" and she says something like, "i don't want you texting in class its disrespectful. isn't leaving more disrespectful? anyway. in short i love my mom, she's the most amazing woman i know.



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The King of Pop

so for my writing class i have to write about a landmark that has some political, scandalous, tragic, etc event attached to it. i have chosen to do the Apollo Theatre, and connect it to Michael Jackson. like many of you know i loved and still love and will always love The King of Pop.
there are certain events we all remember where we were when we first heard about them. and one of these events is most definitely the death of The King of Pop. i grew up in a house where Michael Jackson was always played, where Thriller and Beat It were considered the greatest songs, and where going to london for a concert to end it all was of utmost importance. i miss him a lot and never consider him gone. no matter how much time passes, he will forever be the King of Pop; and there will never be another like him. heres to Michael Jackson.



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library

so today, just like every sunday, i had a shit load of work to do. and i didn't go to bed until literally five in the morning. so i was really fucking tired. anyway, i didn't wake up till one, which isn't too bad considering i went to bed at five. eight hours. that's a lot for me. i need three to be functional, but my ideal is six. so after i showered and ate i texted my friend, Rebecca, and asked her if we had chemistry homework and she said she did and that she was going to the library to do it. the homework should have taken maybe an hour or an hour and a half. but we were there till about eight. and all i got done was chemistry homework, some writing homework, and eating pinkberry.
at fiveish some of our friends were ordering pinkberry. and i was like i don't want any because i need to go to the gym and if i eat now i can't go till seven. but Rebecca wanted it and deep down inside i wanted it too. so then me and her went over to pinkberry and got our fro-yo. it was my first time getting it, and damn that was some good shit. it was like pure deliciousness. i got it with mochi, strawberries, and cookies and cream. so good. i can't believe i didn't know about it before. but i guess that's okay, because i know about it now. and im sure im going to become obsessed with it.



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im an 89!!!

so today i got my grade for my chemistry exam. i still don't get how they grade them so quickly. there are about one hundred kids in the class. and anyway i thought i failed the exam like seriously. i know i say that a lot and that rarely happens, but damn i thought i was gonna fail. and so i checked blackboard, the online site my school uses, and it turns out that i got an 89%!!!!!!! i couldn't believe it. yesterday i called my dad after i took the exam, i don't know why i do this but i do. anyway, he didn't answer and then i called my mom and she asked how my exam went, and i said that i didn't know. and then she was like about... and i was like i don't know. and she was like that's okay, what's done is done. and i was like yeah.
anyway, when i found out that i got an 89% i called my dad, and i told him and he was proud of me. i mean it's not that good, but i really thought i failed, so im happy



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eye candy

so now heres what happened thursday night!
me and my two friends were studying for chemistry and at one in the morning they close the top floors so only the ground floor and the two below are only open. so at one in the morning me and my friends went down to the lower floors to look for a place to sit, preferably a group room. there was one guy who was in a room for four or five and it was just him. guess who it was!....butt guy of course. so we go in and ask if we can sit in the room, and obviously he says yeah sure. and eventually we're all talking and stuff and hes obsessed with the gym and coffee like me and other drugs that are legal for building muscle and shit...nothing illegal. so now im thinking hes not as gay but still he's gay. then he tells this story about his roommate who was tripping on coke, and he said, thankfully i wasn't in the room i was down the hall hooking up with some chick. now i think he's bi. then, we all continue talking, and he told us about how he was rooming with the ra. and i was like damn that sucks. and he was like, yeah i asked him if i could drink and he said no, but i ended up getting wasted with him every weekend it was a little awkward because he was gay, but thats okay.
then i was like he's straight. and i texted my friend, Rebecca, who was in the room, and i was like i wanna tap that shit. and she made fun of me because he was not her type. anyway we were texting back and forth for awhile and i was making her crack up. so every five minutes or so she would laugh and we all would look at her. my other friend, annie, who was also with us, was like what's going on? and Rebecca was like read the texts that my friend is sending. Annie didn't get who was texting Rebecca for a few minutes. and anyway i don't think he knew Rebecca and me were texting back and forth. and the worst part was i couldn't concentrate because of all that eye candy.


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thursday!

so once again on wednesday night i was in the library studying for chemistry. and of course butt guy was there. and while i was studying i had a laughing attack. and for those of you who don't know, i get them when im stressed or just because. on wednesday night it was because i was stressed. and people were looking at me like im crazy. and i know i am, but damn it i couldn't stop laughing for a good twenty minutes. im pretty sure i scared a bunch of people in there.


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wednesday

on tuesday night, i saw the gay guy again at the library of course. he was studying for organic chemistry and me and my friend were studying for general chemistry. and we started to refer to him as butt guy. he's really attractive, but damn hes fucking gay =[. i really wished he wasn't.



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tuesday!! (sorry this is so late =[ )

so on monday night i was living in the library. and there was this guy with great taste in music. so i told him that i love that song. i dont remember what the song was, but one of the songs he was listening to was gimme more by britney spears. then he got up and had a great ass and wore designer jeans. so i assumed he was gay =[.



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here's to monday

so if you haven't already noticed...which i hope you have...chemistry has taken over my life. not figuratively or some shit like that but for real! and i mean for real. on sunday i realized im fucked for chemistry exam which is on friday. so i had/have to study my ass off. like i love chem and all but damn some of this shit is complicated. and to make matters worse, its on three chapters. and of them one and half is really hard.
i did really well on my first exam, so id like to think that i'll do just as well. but im honestly not quite sure if that's possible. and im like seriously studying every night i can except when i take breaks, which i usually take every couple hours for ten to fifteen minutes. and sometimes when i need a break after just an hour it's only five minutes long, which i really don't think is bad at all.
so for the next few days i shall be living in Bobst. and for those of you non-NYUers thats the library. i really like studying in there because i don't take my laptop so i cant get distracted on to facebook or formspring or this. and there are parts of it, where people can talk. i don't like to study in complete silence, so those areas are really nice to me. and when i don't feel like studying in Bobst, i go to Starbucks. they are open till midnight on weekdays, which is nice, but then at midnight they kick me out so i have to go find another place to study...aka Bobst.



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this was what i was gonna post on sunday about saturday night

so im really sorry that i havent updated in awhile. but right now chemistry has taken over my life...LITERALLY. and it will continue to do so until friday! woohooo....NOT!

anyway.
so saturday night i was at a party and my friends were all like you need to come otherwise we'll be really really mad..yada yada yada...anyway so i was like yeah sure obviously. turns out that was not the best idea. i had to be up by nine am on sunday to leave my house at 1030 so i could take my 1130 bus to new york city to get back to school.
so i was at the party and my friends were like shot shot shot and shit so i did. and at this time its around 930 because i wanted to be home by one. and at 1130/12 they were like just take one more and by this time i was completely sober and i was like no. but then they were like please here's to spring break, and i normally never give into peer pressure, but that day for my friends i did. not a good idea, because when i got home i had to do THREE fucking loads of fucking laundry. i mean come on thats ridic. isnt it? i think so. more like i know so! anyhow. i got home around 1 or maybe it was 1230 same difference basically. and on top of that i hadnt packed a single thing. and i fucking hate packing. its ridic. so ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! as is laundry. i ended up starting my laundry at like two, because i was facebooking and formspringing. and even after that instead of packing i was still on facebook and formspring. that night i went to bed at four, and woke up at 930.


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this is for saturday...and yes its uber late!

chem is taking over my life to say the least.

so saturday was an awesome day. minus the part that i wanted to hangout with my friend Brian, but he didnt get back from Jamaica until ten at night.
anyway so saturday i first went to the mall with some of my friends and then we stopped by at rita's ice bc of the free Italian ice stuff they were giving away. and me and my friends got it like five times. omg omg omg so fucking good. absolutely love that shit! its sooo delicious. and then i went home.
not even an hour later me and my one other friend, Nisha, decide to go to a different mall we spend like three hours there. some people might think i have a shopping addiction, because of the nineish days of spring break i went to the mall at least five days. i know thats a little ridic. but there's nothing else to do here i mean come on. Howard County = nothing to do. and for those of you that dont know about howard county, go urban dictionary it. it'll provide a pretty damn good idea of this place.
there really isn't much to do here. hang at the park, mall, someone's house, and party. that's about it. which is why i love Baltimore. i mean there is soo much to do there. the aquarium (five dollar fridays after five....god that makes me soooo fucking happy), the harbor, its just really nice esp in the summer.
as you can tell i get sidetracked really easily so anyway back to saturday. so i hung with my friend and then on my way back home guess where i stopped...rita's. that's right. sooo good.


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this is for friday

so on friday my mom and i had a mother daughter day =]. my mom and i get along pretty well generally, and i absolutely love her. anyway. my mom took a half day at work so we could go to the movies and see Bounty Hunter and for those of you who haven't seen it...its really really good!!!! like i love jennifer aniston and gerard butler but i love them even more together. so yeah my mom and i went to the movies and then to the mall and then my dad met us up for dinner at The Cheesecake Factory!! i love that place its sooooooo yummy and delicious and amazing and so fucking good. i love it! and while i was eating i look over to my right for some reason and i see my anatomy and physiology teacher from my sophomore year of high school there with her husband or boyfriend or something and either her parents or his parents.
i did not like this woman. she was soo rude, mean, and age-ist. i don't know the correct term for someone who judges based on age. i was one of two sophomores in that anatomy class, and she hated both of us. and i have no clue as to why. back then i really really really wished i did know why so that way i could have changed it, but that did not happen. she took off points on my project for putting it in a file cover...that's right people, you read it right. it was a ten point assignment (i didnt know that at the time) and because i put it in a file cover i got eight points. it did not say anywhere on the rubric, no covers, or file covers, or something along those lines.
anyway. so i was sitting at dinner and i asked my mom if that was her and my mom nodded her head and so does my dad. i asked my dad if knew she was sitting there before i mentioned it and he sarcastically said, "yeah, i didn't want to tell you because then you'd get all excited!" and seeing that woman there when i was enjoying my favorite restaurant ever, just ruined my day.


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this is for thursday

so i didn't update because, i was really busy. so here's what i was going to write on thursday.

so i was uber uber excited about meeting my friends crush, but then on thursday morning i got a text from Lisa. she said that she wasn't feeling well. i felt really bad, but i was really really really MAD!!! because i really wanted to meet him. so anyway, i didn't get to meet him. so now i have to wait till May...if she even lets me go. i really hope she does. i promise i won't fuck uppppp!!!



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bribery

so today around nine at night i got a text from Lisa. and she said that she was hoping that one of our mutual friends would come with us tomorrow so that way i don't cause any trouble. but you know what the worst part is, Lisa said she might not take me and needless to say i was MAD. >:(
and then she said she might change her mind about taking me. i mean seriously?!?!? i really wont fuck it up...like seriously i promise. we're literally only gonna be there for five minutes. if im able to do something in five minutes then, damn im fucking awesome!! but i really cant do anything in that short period of time.
in hopes of trying to convince her to let me go i thought the art of bribery would work. so i gave it a shot. i tried bribing her with chocolate....IT DIDN'T WORKK!!!!! how can you not bribe someone with chocolate? if someone wanted to bribe me, just hand me over some Hershey's Cookies and Cream. and then, ill almost do anything. that stuff is soo good. i absolutely love it. it's like magic in my mouth, pure amazingness, and absolute deliciousness. now i really want some of that. but then there are always those days where chocolate doesn't quite work. so i mean maybe it was just one of those days for Lisa.
anyway. i just really hope she doesn't ditch me tomorrow. i deserve to meet this guy. so hopefully i will.


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Friends

so those of you who know me, know that i am OBSESSED with Friends. i absolutely love that show, i cant even imagine what my life would be without it. and some of my friends love it just as much as me. so if i say a quote we'll just start laughing like crazy and be like i remember that episode. and then there are the times when ill be talking to someone and ill drop a quote from Friends and he/she will just look at me like i have five heads, because he/she doesn't get it. and i just have to look down and shake my head and say nevermind, its a Friends thing. most people have at least heard of the show. so if i say that they'll at least know somewhat of what im talking about. but then there are also a few people who have never even heard of Friends. and those people just need help. i mean seriously, watch a couple episodes and you'll be hooked. its so funny, so good, and so fucking entertaining. it can always cheer me up, especially the episode where Ross is fine, and the one where Joey gets his eyebrows waxed, and when Chandler cant cry, basically i love all the episodes.
today, my friend Katie came over. and whenever we hang out at either of our houses we watch friends. its kinda like a tradition. not really, but whatever. we both fucking love that show. its soooo good. we started out watching disc two of season six. and i have to say, i love the episode where Rachel makes the dessert trifle with beef. its just soooo funny. they all pretend to eat it, and joey well, he just loves it. on top of this, in this episode we find out that Ross smoked pot in college. if i were to guess anyone who didnt smoke pot i would say Ross, but finding this out made me love him. kudos to Ross.
Friends is just part of my life. i need my daily dose of Friends, and today i was glad to get seven doses with one of my best friends. it just makes me feel wonderful and makes me laugh. damn i just love that fucking show.

Lisa....i love you

so a few days ago, i saw one of my best friends, Lisa. she likes this guy whos a bit older which i think is completely okay, except hes married. for those of you who dont know me, im a very loud sometimes obnoxious person. hence, Lisa has told me multiple times that i will never meet him or ill meet him when her mother gets to meet him (which is never), because i would say something along the lines of, "eww him?" or id just go up to him and say "Lisa loves you and talks about you all the time and wants to fuck you." anyway. when i saw Lisa she told me she might let me meet him if i kept my trap shut for a few days. being the persistent person that i am, i did. i didnt make a single comment about him, i kept this up for about two days and i wouldve gone longer if i didnt know that Lisa was joking. two days into this she asked me, "when are we hanging out next week?" and i said "you told me not to mention it!" and she said something like, you couldnt have thought i was serious and i said, "well i did! thats why i havent said shit about him. hell i havent even mentioned him." then i said im only free wednesday and thursday. thursdays are when Lisa sees this guy. and so obviously Lisa said wednesday. and i bitched at her for a good two hours if not more. i mean seriously wouldnt you too? you do something in hope for something and then end up with nothing, zilch, nada. so clearly i was mad. i told Lisa "im gonna bitch about you on my blog, except it might not be till tomorrow because im really lazy right now."

this is what i was planning on writing and i was gonna end it here. but, earlier today while i was at the mall there was an interesting turn of events.

i was sitting in panera bread eating my mediterranean veggie sandwich (omg sooooo good, if you havent tried it do yourself a favor and try it) and talking to my friend Courtney. my hot pink phone is sitting on the table and it started buzzing. and im thinking "who could this be?" i look at it and it was Lisa and she asked if i wanted to hang out with her on thursday since the guy is only gonna be around for like five mins, and according to Lisa, i "seriously cant cause trouble in five mins." and i was like "ummmm YESSSSS!!!!!!!!!!" i mean seriously, how could i give up this opportunity? ive been waiting for months for this. so now i get to meet this guy and guess what, its before Lisa's mother meets him. and for that matter, before some of her other close friends. i feel so awesome right now. being persistent gives wonderful things. and Lisa, i love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for those that dont know me

so this is for all you lovely people out there who dont know me. im a 19 year old who goes to nyu. although i do sometimes (many times) act like a five year old. im not sure about my major yet, but i do know i want to be a doctor so i have a focus in pre-med. my major is either gonna be anthropology, biology, or neuroscience. i love living in nyc, its prob like the most amazing thing ever. the best part is, im never ever bored. i can always go out and do something. i love going up to central park and just chilling, its quite relaxing. i love sitting in wash square park and just doing my homework. i enjoy meeting random people prob because i like to talk a lot. i pretty much love everyone (there are a few exceptions, but its not like i hate them. i just highly dislike them). i believe there isnt enough love in the world to be spreading hate. i think its important to spread peace, love, and hope. i wish that all wars would end, and that there would only be peace in the world. hope is important because without that life is empty. these are the most important things to me besides my friends and family, who i absolutely love. they are so important to me. id do anything for them, i cant imagine my life without them. i always want and need them in my life.