Panera Bread

right now im blogging on the road to Atlantic City. it's pretty boring. make that very boring. im sitting in Panera Bread. and doing this. and i must add their tomato, basil, and mozzarella salad, is fucking delicious. like sooo fucking good. you all need to get some. oo and their Mediterranean Veggie Sandwich.....sooo fucking good too. like i could eat both of them every single fucking day. ooo for breakfast today i had a brownie sundae. yes i was soooo unhealthy today. it's pretty ridic. i am not even planning on going to the gym while im on this mini vacation. but i will be walking a lot. there are really nice outlets, including COACH!!! ahahhaha. anyway. till im back i love you all mucho.


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wow.

so im getting really bad with posting lately. there is literally nothing going on in my life. just work and chem and partying. but on that note ill tell you all what i did last night. so im going away for the weekend and monday and so we were having a small party. and my friends were like since there are only ten or eleven of us whatever we don't finish we'll use it for the party tonight, which i will not be at. and i was like hell no. we gonna finish this shit because im not gonna be there tomorrow. some how ten of us finished three bottles of wine, two of the big bottles of vodka, and a bottle of malibu. i have no clue how.



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Chem Chem Chem Chem Chem

today was the most fucking boring fucking day ever fucking possible. although that was completely my fault, it still sucked. so im taking notes on chem II just so that way in the fall i can concentrate on physics. and this stuff isn't too bad. that is probably because i have done it all in ap chemistry. but that is not the point. today i took notes on one entire fucking chapter. and these chapters aren't short or anything, they are 40 to 50 pages long. long and intense. anyway. im hoping i can get out of study mode and into party party party mode tonight. well more like in less than an hour because my friends are picking me up at 9. so that is all for now.



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Inception

for those who have not seen Inception, go see it. like right now if you can. it is like no other movie. completely original. and if you don't like movies that mess with your mind, then just stare at Leonardo DiCaprio and Joseph Gordon-Levitt. i mean they are just gorgeous. but no, seriously. the movie is great. i would try to explain it, but my small head is unable to do that. it is a thinking movie. but soooo soooo soooo good. so go see it!



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phone!

i figure i should talk about some of what happened last friday night. so i was at this party and my friend, James thought it would be funny to drop my phone into the pool. so he stole my phone and put it in his pocket which did not have his phone. the idiot took out a phone when he got to the pool...it wasn't my phone, it was his! so im glad to say the motherfucker had to get a new phone and i am very very happy with mine.



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Britney Spears

so im sorry i haven't blogged in forever. i have to tell you about what happened on friday while i was at Barnes & Noble with Lisa. so i was talking to Lisa and Brian sent me this text "Did you hear! Hillary duff just put a cover out of oops i did it again!" and i was like "Whatttttt????" and he was like "Remember shes trying to become britany speers!" the fucker can't even spell her name right lol. anyway by this point i was freaking the fuck out. i fucking love Britney Spears, if you didn't already know. and anyway im like flipping shit. then i was like "That was miley!!! But i dont get what hilary duff did! Did she sing a song or whatt??" then this is what i get "haha damn i messed it up i was trying to fuck with you" is he fucking kidding me?!?! you don't joke about that shit. anyway. i still love him.

marathon or Halloween with Katie?

so today i am going to continue posting about the dilemma which i am in...whether or not i should run the Baltimore half marathon. so i think i figured out why im a bit apprehensive about it. and that is because for Halloween i was planning on visiting Katie at her school. and Halloween is two weekends after the half marathon. so if i go home to run this then im not sure if ill be able to see Katie over Halloween. i know i need to set my priorities straight, but still i really would like to see Katie at some point during the next semester. oh and apparently i didn't tell Rebski about my little plan about running a marathon and she called me crazy. is it really that crazy? because i don't think so. i mean i do a lot more crazier shit than that. anyhow. if any of you who are reading this has an opinion going either way, tell me =].



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marathon?

so today im debating an important issue with myself. whether or not i should run the Baltimore half marathon on october 16. my goal by the time i finish up at NYU is to run the New York City Marathon. and i will be happy with myself if i run the half marathon. and i really think that i should start out by running the Baltimore half marathon. i really don't know what is stopping me, i guess it's just the thought of running that much. im not quite sure. all i know is, i really want to do this. but i guess the real question is whether or not im ready for it. id like to think im ready i can run over six miles in one hour, so doing the half marathon in five hours should be no biggie. but for some reason im apprehensive about the whole idea. im not sure why. maybe im just afraid. anyway. this is basically what i have been thinking about all day.



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new york city

sorry i have not updated all of you on my life. i was in new york city this weekend and met up with Sam and Hanah and Steffany and Mindy and Paula. it was mad fun. Friday night Sam and I had a rooftop party on her roof. that was greatttttt. and i was only tipsy, even though i had a glass of wine, 3 glasses of sangria (which Sam made and it turned out soooooo fucking good), and 3 shots of malibu banana rum. so my tolerance is goin up up up. it's about time now. like for real. so im pretty proud of myself. =] [=.
anyway that is all for right now because i need to put lots of pictures on facebook. yay.



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this would happen to me

so i think that Brian thinks im bi. i alluded to what happened a few years ago and how i got fucked over really badly and the person that fucked me over was a girl. no i didn't hook up with her or anything. it's just that she did something to fuck me over. and that is why i don't do or believe in relationships. he tried to get me to talk about it that day but i told i would start crying and shit and that i needed to be drunk to tell the story. so now i think Brian thinks im bi.



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beyond fucking pissed

i am beyond fucking pissed. so today, well technically yesterday, i hung out with Brian. and no i don't like him or anything, i've been hooking up with another guy lately, but Brian found a new girl. which i am totally fine with. it's about time he finds a new girl. they are not official or anything yet, but im pretty sure that is gonna happen sometime soon. anyway. while he's, let's just say fooling around with this chick what does the motherfucker do, he fucks his ex girlfriend. and i fucking hate is fucking ex girlfriend. and he knows i fucking hate her. and he was all like you should be proud of me because sex is different to guys and girls you should be proud of me that im like just fucking her again. and i was like yeah and now you can just fuck her over. but no. he's not gonna do that. he wants to keep her in his little loop just so in case things with this other chick don't work out he's got options. and im totally fine with that, yes i think like a guy, get over it, but why the fuck her. i fucking can't fucking stand that bitch, and he fucking knows that. why her?!?!?! seriously why her!?!?!?



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Enrique Iglesias

today i am blogging about my new romance, Enrique Iglesias. on day this past weekend i was watching mtv or vh1 and his song with Ciara came on, I'm Taking Back My Love. and i was like in love. still am in love. he's got an amazing voice, and aside from that an even amazinger body...which is what i really care about. so im sure you all remember rhythm divine, the ping pong song, and bailamos. well now he's back again with his album titled Euphoria. it's half in spanish and half in english. my favorite song on there is I Like It which features Pitbull. such a catchy song, and soo sooo soooo good. im in love. anyway. back to his amazingness. he's like sooo hot. and normally i don't like guys with the whole five o'clock shadow shit going on. but him, ohhhh myyyy goddddd. he is sooo hot with it. like damn i wanna tap that shit.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w55Nib4uf1U&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X9_n8jakvWU



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15 things about my life

so im taking this from a friend's post (sorry Lizi...i didn't know what to blog about today):

1) i love the show Friends. i own all ten seasons, and have seen every episode at least fifteen times. i can never decide which episode is my favorite, because i love them all. i really like the one with the blackout, the one where Joey gets his eyebrows waxed, the one with the night after, the one with Chandler in a box, and the one with all the thanksgivings.

2) i can't take Rachel's side on the whole we were on a break thing. i think Ross was right. they were broken up and Rachel just had to get over everything. taking a break means breaking up. if your not getting some from one person then you should be able to get it from someone else.

3) i eat ice cream or frozen yogurt everyday. i can't live without either of them. they are soooo good. and according to some people i make a fro-yo fail. that being, a fro-yo topped with just rainbow jimmies.

4) i call sprinkles jimmies. yes, that is a Boston thing and i am from Baltimore. one time i was in a dining hall and i told the woman i wanted rainbow jimmies on my fro yo and she looked at me like i had five heads.

5) i love 90s and early 2000's music. i love Britney and Nsync and Backstreet Boys and Enrique Iglesias and SoulDecision and 98 degrees and LFO and so many others. they make me feel sooo good. and that is like my feel good music. it reminds me of my childhood.

6) i love the Muppets Christmas Carol. i don't know what it is about this movie, but i fucking love it. it's amazing. i love all the muppets the Great Gonzo is my favorite. and so is Rizzo the Rat. hahaha.

7) i am obsessed with the gym. there is nothing like running and working out. it is amazing. and i LOVE it. when i get back to NYU im gonna start training for a half marathon.

8) i am obsessed with post-its. they are the greatest invention every fucking possible. i write notes to myself all the time. sometimes i even take notes on post-it notes. they are just awesome. and the post-it highlighters are even better. soooo fucking cool. you get the highlighter and the post-it flags all together.

9) i love organizing. i think organizing is sooo important. my clothes in my closet are arranged by style and then color. its like a rainbow. it's soo greattt.

10) crayola twistables, are fucking awesome. they are the greatest thing to ever exist. i love drawing with them even though i can't draw. haha. you all prob know that from my little drawing that is on facebook.

11) i love chemistry. the only thing that is stopping me from being a chemistry major is fucking calculus two. which Brian could help me with. but damn, what if i fail. like seriously, i can't deal with more fucking math. i hate it.

12) i liked math until calculus hit me like a big yellow bus. and since calculus i have hated math. i can't stand it. im sooo bad at it. i know i got an A this time in calculus. but last time not so much. not so much at all. i had like almost failed.

13) i love painting my nails. i literally have nearly every color fucking possible. i paint my nails at least once a week. or if i don't paint them i fix the color i have on by adding another coat.

14) i love Michael Jackson. he is the greatest man to ever exist. i wrote a paper on him this past year, and i have to say, it was the best paper i have ever written. the man is sooo amazing. he went to soon but he is forever in our hearts. there will never be another like him. ever.

15) the worst thing that ever happened to me, happened when i was 17. it has been over two years since it happened, and to this day, it bugs the fuck out of me. i still have not been able to forgive that person. i really want to forgive that individual but somehow i can't bring myself to doing that. i really want some closure with it, but somehow i can't seem to find it. i think once i get that closure ill be able to move one. but idk how to get that.



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Katie

this is for one of my best friends, Katie. i know sometimes she reads my blog and hopefully this will be one of the ones she gets a chance to read.
Katie, you're like one of my best friends. and i really hope you know that. you've been there for me through everything. and never once judged my like everyone else. you were there when everything happened when i was 17. from all the texting to the being in love to wanting to kick some motherfucking ass. you were there. you were part of it, which really really kills me sometimes. you shouldn't have been dragged into that whole mess, i still have no clue how that individual got hold of your phone number. and im sorry for that. i know it's not my fault, but damn i feel bad that you had to deal with that shit. i really wish none of that had ever happened, but everything happens for a reason right? so i guess what im really trying to say is thanks for always being there for me; and for always looking out for me. i love you.



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stuff

some days i feel like im not me. before everything happened i used to be this fun person who always lived life to the max. i didn't care about anything. i did what i wanted to when i wanted to. but now thing are different. im not the old me. im someone different. someone who's afraid of taking risks, someone who's afraid of getting hurt, someone who's apprehensive of everything. i never used to be this way; that is until everything happened. i wish i was the old me. everything i do now, seems fake. i don't do things because i want to, i do them because i have to. i want the old me back. i want to get over everything that happened. and im not sure how to. i really need some closure, and i don't know how to get that.



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ughhh

sometimes i feel like i made a mistake. i shouldn't have told a certain someone that i had someone for him. i like him...i like him a lot. and i don't know what to do about this. now he's seeing someone and i just wish i could get over him. and i need to. because all the guys that i have recently "liked" i didn't actually like them. i was just lusting after them, granted that's what i always do. when i lust after most guys, it's all physical; but this guy, like seriously, it's not at all physical. yeah i think it would be fun to get with him and tap that shit. but that's not all. i also want to just talk to him and just be with him. and damn this needs to fucking stop.



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Grandma

tonight no parties, no drinks, and no drunk texting. just me, myself, and i, maybe some friends, a movie or two, and some other stuff.
today's post isn't going to be my usual post. it's about someone i miss dearly, my grandma. she past away when i was eight or nine. and sometimes i really wish that she was still around. when my parents have heated arguments, i just wish i could drive up to Philly and see her. i don't know why but lately i keep thinking about her. maybe it's because i can't stand dealing with my parents or maybe it's because i wish i spent more time with her or maybe it's just something else. when i think back to the days when she was here with us, all i can think of are happy times. i remember as a kid my parents and i would go up to Philly. and there was this pizza place near where they used to live, that had the best pizza ever. and the five of us would sit around the table and just talk. the five of us being my dad, my mom, my grandpa, my grandma, and me. sometimes we would spend the night. damn i really miss her. sometimes there are things that i just can't talk to my mom about, and i want to talk to my grandma. i want to know whether or not im doing the right thing, whether or not my thinking is right, whether or not i need to do anything different. i just need some advice sometimes and i know my grandma would be able to help me. i miss her so fucking much.

grandma, id like to think you are reading this; and whether or not i showed how much i loved you before, just know i miss you soo much and love you even more. i love you.



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in other news

now i need to catch you all up on my life aside from partying. on the fourth i talked to Brian, and he told me he got a girl. he's been with her for a week. and he didn't fucking tell me. and so now i need to tell Rebski that my dream of her and Brian is gonna have to wait. and prob wait for awhile. Brian is like fucking in love with this chick. and he normally has relationships that last a long while. so unless something goes wrong, my dream is gonna have to wait for a long while, UNLESS when Brian comes up to visit me, drunk Brian and drunk Rebski do something. now that is possible. most people are whores when they are drunk. so it is very possible. Brian drinks enough, and ill give him some poppers because those fuck you up real good. and ill get the bartender to put extra rum in Rebski's pina colada. haha. i hope Rebski does not read my blog.


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District

i just realized i did not tell you all about saturday night. that night we were celebrating my friends friend's birthday. and i don't know the guy whose birthday it was. my friend was like you have to go with me. and so i was like i don't really want to, then she told me it was at this club in DC, District. and i was like im not sure and then she said there were free drinks. and i was like alright im there. and she was like meet me at my house at ten, and she lives right outside DC. and i was like alright, sounds good. and so i went crazy that night. crazy being like soooo wasted its beyond ridic. and remember that wasted priya = whore. and i was like making out with all the guys in our group. even the ones with girlfriends. but i didn't know about that, so it's not my fault. and then when i got back to my friends house everyone decided to come to her house too and we continued to drink and i mixed drinks even though i was beyond gone.



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the fifth of July

normally on big holidays (New Years, 4th of July, end of summer party, beginning of summer party) we try to keep our parties pretty mellow. and then the day after we go all out crazy, but clearly we didn't do that this time on the fourth. this year on the fifth we went beyond crazy. the area in which i generally party is this rich ass area, where parties rarely get broken because the houses are so spread apart that the neighbors can't hear anything. aka parties not getting broken. and the party we had on the fifth did not get broken but it was one of the best house parties that i have ever been to. and i have been to my fair share of parties. they had everything. all the alcohol you could imagine, all the extra stuff for drinks ever possible, and about five tables of beer/vodka/rum/tequila pong. we even took the party outside onto the lawn and the trampoline. we even lit some firecrackers behind the house. and no one called the cops on us. basically it was mad fun. and like always my phone was taken away. im not sure if i mentioned this before but when i drunk text, people can't tell im drunk texting, because everything is spelled right. so they think im sober, when im really not. and then the next morning i don't remember texting them, and then it's kinda hard to figure out what i said when i don't remember texting them, and i always clear my inbox when im drunk. it's really weird. but whatever. it was a great party.


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4th of July

i am sooooo sorry i have not posted in like three days. and because of that i owe you three stories. one from each of the parties i went to.
so on sunday i spend the day with my parents. we went to the outlets in Hagerstown, and it was pretty fun. and then when we got back my parents were going to a party at their friends house so i went to my friends house. here in Maryland, fireworks are illegal. and my drunken friends were like let's light fireworks. they won't catch us! and i was also not thinking, and said yeahhhh they won't they are all over the highways looking for drunken drivers, they aren't gonna be looking in neighborhoods for people with firecrackers. i was wrong. we all were wrong. we got caught, and almost everybody got a citation except for a few individuals including me, who were smart enough to hide. hehe =]. after the cops left and everybody who got caught went home, me and the guy whose house the party was at called everybody that was there, and told them to come back! and we stayed in the basement and kept the noise down and did not get caught again. it was a pretty damn good party. =]

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chance

this post isn't about my day or about calc (which i got an A in fyi =]) or about drunk priya. it's about life.

whenever there is something you want to do, and you have the opportunity to do it. take the chance and do it. you never know when you're gonna get another chance to do something like that. sometimes in life you get one chance, and when that chance comes, no matter what the risks are, you need to go for it. even if it doesn't work out for you in the end. you'll never have to think about what if i took that chance. in my opinion, it is these what if questions that are always the worst. so as Tom Brady once said, "all you need is a chance." so take that chance and see what happens, you never know what might happen.



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THE END

i am deeply sorry for not posting yesterday. as you all know, well those of you who follow me, i had my calculus final today, so yesterday was dedicated to calculus. and lunch with one of my girlfriends, Ilar. we went to Nordstrom Cafe like always =]. aka deliciousnesssssss.
anyhow. today was my calculus final. so fucking glad that shit over with. like seriously. fuck calc in the fucking ass. im done with that motherfucker for good. hopefully. ooo and i sold my textbook i bought on Ebay for 64 bucks to the JHU bookstore and i got back 66.75. any profit is good for me. =]. and plus i didn't have to deal with putting it up on ebay, and what not. im sorry but this post is really short. i need to get some fucking sleep. and then drink some tonight.



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