another day another rant

so today i have another rant. i get really really really annoyed when people are late. today my mother and i were supposed to go shopping and we were gonna leave at ten in the morning. my dad was like im gonna come too, and because of him we didn't leave until 10:40. if there's a plan i like to stick to it. and NOT be late. if you tell me even a few minutes in advance that is great. but not telling me at all, FUCK NO. i like being on time. and can't stand being late.



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my rant for today

so if there is one thing that i really hate, it's hippocracy. i really can't stand these people. it's one of the reasons i don't really have a faith. im basically athiest and these people are partially the reason why. the other reasons, well that's a story for another day. every year my parents do this thing at our temple, where they make food for anywhere from 300 to 450 people. it's a LOT of work. and i help my parents because the people in who's honor they do it, meant a lot to me. and honestly i really miss them. they were like my grandparents. and anyway. we had a bunch of food left over and this one guy packed literally like seven or eight containers of it! sikh's are not supposed to be greedy, but this guy was beyond fucking greedy. it's beyond fucking ridic. i can't stand that guy, i really honestly seriously fucking dislike him. and it's not like i wanted to take all the fucking food leftover; but my parents spend their time and money and energy in making it. they should be able to give it to whomever they want. and they did give it some of their friends, but still that guy had NOTHING to do with us. yes he should eat it like all the other people, but he shouldn't be a fucking greedy fucking ass. and the sad thing is it's not only my family and me who don't like him. many other people in our temple don't like him. anyway. that's my rant.



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so happy

so yesterday i saw Lisa and it was mucho exciting!! but today was the most excitingest thing. IM EMPLOYED!!! i now work at Ann Taylor Loft. and now one of my nine summer goals is complete. and i created a list of the chapters i will learn each week for chemistry. and after im done with calculus i shall pick Rosetta Stone in Hindi AND an AP physics book, that way i can learn physics. before i actually take the class. and to celebrate my job, my mom and i went to TCBY!!!! so yummy in my tummy!



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boring

so i haven't blogged in a few days but that's only because nothing interesting has been happening. except yesterday i had a job interview at jcpenny. and i think it went well. well i hope it went well. anyway. i'll find out if i got the job next week. that's pretty much all that is going on in my life.



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life

so ummm nothing is really going on right now. i didn't do anything too crazy last night. well i didn't do anything crazy at all last night. i was home at like midnight and went straight to bed. but still had fun. and today i didn't do anything. well that's a lie. i went grocery shopping, and picked up some forms from my doctor. and then i went out for dinner tonight, but with my parents. so that wasn't as fun. but it was good. that's all for now.



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water?

so im sorry all that i was unable to post yesterday. which i really could have on friday night/ saturday morning. anyway. i went to bed at like four in the fucking morning, even though i really wasn't doing anything, aside from watching a movie. and then i woke up at eight and went shopping all day and then dinner. by the time i got home it was like 10:30, and time for me to go to a partayyy.
so i was at my friends house, and i had a few screwdrivers and some shots. and by this time it was like 12:30, and we were extremely hungry. so i opened up the cabinet and saw pasta and plenty of snack foods. but we needed real food and considering how unsober we all were, something easy. so i was like "is pasta good?" and everyone was like yes. i mean how hard can pasta be, water, pasta, butter, sauce. i forgot to add the water. so i was banned from the kitchen. but then someone else made it so we didn't go hungry. =]



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on old friend i missed dearly

so today i woke up at like noon. i thought i had to go to Giant to get some stuff but i didn't. so i basically woke up early for no reason! well i mean there was a reason but yeah. anyway. today i saw KATIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeahhh i love this chica! ive known her for like seven years, she's like one of my best friends. she was supposed to come to my house, but i went to hers instead. and like always we watched Friends, and talked about life. i told her multiple stories the one where the woman SAT on me in the subway, the one where i drank too much, the one with Brian and his ex and Geoffery and Rebecca and that whole mess, and then a bunch of stories about butt guy and the library. i missed the Katie in my life, and now she's back.
and ummm today is Pacman's birthday and Google is fucking amazing! i sat there playing it for a long long while. and then of course i filled out more job applications. wooohoooo. NOT!!



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Courtney

so today i saw Courtney! and we talked and talked and talked some more and then we started job hunting online. and my computer seems to hate everyone except me. i mean it's a good thing that it doesn't hate me, but i wish it liked everyone else too. and then we talked and went to Noodles and Co. for lunch! i missed that place. soooooo fucking good.


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and life

nothing that interesting is happening right now, except last night i had the best conversation ever on Omegle. we covered like everything. anyway. nothing really interesting happened today except i couldn't fucking eat after midnight this early morning because someone had to get blood drawn. yay...NOT!!! i love giving blood, but i hate when i have to get blood drawn for stupid things such as diabetes and cholesterol tests. and its not even like i show any signs of either of those, nor do they run in my family.
anyway. that day i did the summer goals post i forgot to include one more goal.

6- learn chemistry II
next semester i take chemistry II. so my goal for the summer is to learn it. i learned it once in AP Chemistry but that was about three years ago. so i've forgotten a lot. so id like to brush up on it that way i am ready for the fall and don't have to spend as much time on it. that was my time can go to physics.

7- get a job
i don't think this needs any explanation.

8- sell stuff on ebay
i've collected many books and other things over the years and i just need to get rid of them. and ebay is the best way to make the most money. if i were trying to just get rid of it quickly then id go to Craig's list, but that's not the case.

9- learn physics
my dad is really good at it, so it'll be in my benefit to learn it before the semester starts. that way im prepared.



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Nisha

so today i saw Nisha!!! we went to Tutti Frutti and had delicious fro-yo. and we talked for like ever and it was sooo nice seeing her after such a long time. she's like one of my only indian friends, and it seems like she knows all the indian kids in my area. so i told her i need to have more indian friends. and she was like why so i told her the wedding story and how indian people throw the best parties. and she agreed with me; we do throw the best parties. i missed the Nisha in my life, and i get to see her next friday and i am uber excited for that! and i think we're gonna get fro-yo again except at Yogi's Castle.



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summer goals

so instead of ranting about how fucking NYU STILL has not posted up all my fucking final grades, i thought id talk about my summer goals.

My Goals:

1- pass calculus with an A/A-
so this summer im taking calculus at JHU. and i've had some pretty bad experiences with it, so im hoping this summer is not a repeat of those past experiences. Brian and probably my dad will be helping me. this class will basically determine whether or not i am going to attempt to major in chemistry. i know for sure im a psychology major and i know i am at least a chemistry minor, but there's a possibility, if the class goes well, that i might also major in chemistry. it'll be hell but oh well. i like chemistry. yes im a nerd, deal with it. the reason this class decides it is because i need to take another semester of calculus to be a chemistry major

2- learn to drive a manual
when i saw Brian over winter break he told me he'd teach me to drive a stick over the summer IF i showed absolutely no signs of road rage when im with him.

3- brush up on Hindi
so i speak Hindi fluently, but i also need to be able to write just as well. and i can write and read just not very well. so Rosetta Stone here i come. in a few days...maybe a week...i don't know when but hopefully during the summer =]

4- go to nyc
this is pretty self-explanatory. i miss the city. the end.

5- party party party.
this also pretty self-explanatory. i like to party. yay.



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today

so last night i went to this party, and i did not have a repeat of last weekend. =]] and i got home at like two but somehow i didn't get to bed till like four. probably because i started watching Friends. i also talked to Alec which was kinda nice and yet sad. i miss all my friends, and the fact that a lot of my friends aren't home till later this week is not helping.
today i woke up at like two...literally. it was nice because i didn't have to do any work for the people coming over in like half an hour. well i did, but not that much. and i've been watching Friends for the last three-ish hours. and i love Friends, just in case you hadn't noticed.



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fuck NYU...or just the people that put the grades up

seriously NYU?!?!?! seriously?!?!?! what the fuck...no like seriously what the fuckkkkk....commencement was on wednesday, today is saturday. all my grades should be in by now. but are they?? NO!!! why the fuck not? i wish i fucking knew. id really like to know what i got in the class that i don't have the grade up for. like for real. that was the only class that i was really unsure about what im gonna get. and guess what i still don't fucking know. this is getting beyond ridiculous. i wanna know what i got and today would be fucking nice.



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more about my life

so today i woke up at one, which i guess does make sense since i slept at six. i watched a one and a half seasons of Friends, and it was soooo fucking worth it. i love that show. it's probably the greatest show out there. so i think im gonna be up all night again watching Friends. and you know i thought that once i got home id be getting lots of sleep. but that really has not been the case. which might be a good thing, considering i have a summer class starting in a bit, but id really like to get some extra sleep. for the past few weeks it seems like i have forgotten what sleep is. but that's preparing me for med school right? well that's the way im looking at it.
in other news Brian is home next week, and his fucking redbulls are waiting for him. im not sure if i mentioned this but during finals week at NYU i got like three redbulls, and then i collected others throughout the second semester because my new year's resolution was to give up all energy drinks (this was not proposed by me, but by fucking Brian). and i've kept it up so far and id like to see how long i can go. it's been over five months which is a big deal for me. i used to drink three of the big redbulls, two frappuccinos, and three coffees everyday. but now it's just lots of coffee and an occasional frappuccino. well it's more like way way way tooo much coffee, but the way i see it is: coffee is better than redbull. and you know what the funny thing is, i don't drink coffee to stay awake. one because it doesn't work, and two because well it just really doesn't work. i drink it because im addicted to caffeine.



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life

so today im really not sure what i did besides go to the gym. that's partially because i woke up at noon. so while i was at the gym Rebecca texted me saying that our chemistry grades were up. and yes i got an A. so there's only one grade that i don't know which is kinda really driving me crazy because it should be up. grades are due from professors 72 hours after the exam. this exam was right after chemistry so it should be up. so NYU is kinda pissing me off. in other news today i when i was making my lunch i realized it was thursday and every thursday i have lunch with Alec, or coffee, or well i at least see him. but that didn't happen today. also i kinda really miss all my NYU friends and going through New York City withdrawal is not helping my case.



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life

so today i saw Courtney after the longest time. well it felt like a long ass time, anyway we went to the mall and just hung out. it was nice. im soo glad i get to see my friends again. and i also got my chemistry final exam grade, my philosophy exam, and my chemistry lab final grade. and you know what's really fucked up??? i do fine in the classes for my major/focus but i do worse on my required classes. those are supposed to be worse. and also today i brought into perspective the possibility of doing a double major in psychology and chemistry.



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updates updates updates

so i haven't blogged in literally a week, i've just been so busy with finals and getting home and stuff, so here's to one long post.

so tuesday i was major major major freaking out about my chemistry exam that was on thursday. and to add to that my friend Geoffery decided to drop the bomb: he knew my friend Brian. and i have mentioned Brian multiple times, because for some reason i really think that Rebecca and Brian need to hook up. i have no clue why, but i really think they need to get together. so Rebecca, Geoffery, and me are sitting at this table in the library, and we're in the area where we can talk. and then Geoffery says, "I know Brian Beisel, well im not sure if it's the same one but i know one" and im like "WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!? Describe him!" and he goes "tall, average weight, curly brown hair" and im like "OHHH MYYYYY GODDDDDDD!!!!" he says he knew Brian from an orchestra camp in Philly when he was a freshmen so i text Brian "so did you go to an orchestra camp when you were a sophomore in Philly?" and Brian's like "how did you know thattt?!?!?!" i felt like a complete creeper so i called him and told him what was going on and i also told him about Rebecca and he was like "send me a picture of the both of them" so i did. and the idiot thought that Rebecca was also from the camp and i was like "nooooo she's the girl im trying to set you up with." and then he was like "what prompted this?" so i had to tell him the story about how his ex-girlfriend asked me about how i like nyu and i couldn't fucking lie to her because i fucking love nyu. im sooo fucking happy there. so i basically told her the truth, and i thought that i convinced her to come to nyu. and me and Brian talked for a bit and i was hoping he would never hear this story but clearly that didn't happen.

so wednesday i was major freaking the fuck out about chemistry. like for real. in a twenty-four time period, i had ten coffees, two vibrancy drinks, and a cig, i don't even smoke! i told Brian about this and i was like im gonna die and i told him what i did and he said that he would kill me. but he'd never do that; he loves me. anyway i was studying my ass off with Rebecca and Hanah. Rebecca, Geoffery, and me also got frozen yogurt when we were taking a study break. and that day in the library i was so much in the zone to the point that i couldn't hear my friends calling me and the other reason is probably that i had my music on really loud. and i still think that i failed my exam.

thursday, i had to turn my take home final exam. and then when i was walking to the building i realized i forgot to print out my works cited page. and then i went to library printed it out and turned it in. then i slept for a few hours and i got lunch with Alec and freaked the fuck out because i had my chemistry exam and then right after i had another exam. and i think i did alright on that exam. so after my exams i hit the library up again with Rebecca. and Hanah said she was treating me to frozen yogurt, but i don't let people treat me i just let them think that they will treat me. and then after we went back to the library for some chemistry fun. and then this guy Matt was also there. i don't think i've mentioned him, but he used me for chemistry and to get to Rebecca (he wants her so bad like it's sooooo funny, and she really doesn't want him. and im trying to get her with Brian) and for Starbucks. i don't remember when this happened but we were in the library and i was being polite because that's just me unless you give me a reason to be mean, which many people do. anyway so i was like im going to Starbucks anyone want anything (anyone being Matt and Rebecca) and Matt was like "yeah i'll have a grande iced caramel machiato" i was expecting him to pay me back but he didn't. so finally on thursday i was like pay me back, and by the way, he was drinking in the library, and smelt like ughhhhh. like i hate the smell of beer, any other alcohol is fine just not beer. i hate beer the smell the taste everything. who the fuck fucking drinks in a fucking library? like for real. so i asked him for my money which he did give back thankfully, otherwise he would've gotten a piece of me. then at like three the upper areas of the library were closing and Geoffery, Rebecca, and me were going to leave then. just then Annie told me butt guy was downstairs sitting right across from her i didn't want to see him, but then i had to. i ended up walking almost all the way back to my dorm with Rebecca and Geoffery but then i turned around went right back to the library to stare at him like a creeper..not really. i actually did study for my chemistry lab final. ughhh i really wanna tapp that shittttt, but that's not gonna happen now is it? so i was at the library till 5:30 and i went to bed at 6 woke up at 7.

and now on to friday. like i said i woke up at seven so basically an hour of sleep, and i was leaving, and i had literally nothing packed, and didn't sell my books, and i hadn't been to the gym in three days. so i was not in a good mood. anyway i had to go to Bath and Body Works, to pick up my mom's Mother's Day gift and to Papyrus to get a card. and i had a few other things to do. i did them, went to lunch with Hanah and Rebecca and Geoffery also came. then we all went to our exam and i got out of their asap. like i couldn't deal with that shit. and so i left sold my books and began freaking the fuck out. i didn't have anything packed. all i had done was getting the posters off of my wall. and i texted Hanah, Annie, Steffany, Alec, Geoffery, and Rebecca that i was in my room and i needed help! and Hanah-bless her heart- my parents would have killed me if it weren't for her. she literally packed everything for me. and when my parents were stuck in the Holland Tunnel i did a little bhangra for Rebecca, Alejandra, and Geoffery. my parents picked me up and that's when it hit me. i really do not want to leave new york city. im in love with it, and i don't think i'll ever want to leave. i told this to Brian who was drunk at formal and he seemed to take it well.

saturday. well i slept for like twelve hours because i was sooooo sleep deprived. i saw Lisa too. and obviously i was obnoxious as ever at Barnes & Noble (what's new there?) it was nice seeing her. i hadn't seen her in forever. and then that night i went to a friends house. and you all know that i am a light weight. we were playing an intense round of vodka/orange juice pong...which i did fucking win but i thought it would be a good idea to chugg the rest. and then i had two coconut rum and orange juices. and then James told me some stuff about this bitch which you guys do not know about, and that made me sad so my friends were like petron!!! tequilla!!! so i had seven drinks but thankfully i kept eating so i didn't get sick. and i remember everything!! so it's all good.

sunday. that was Mother's Day, and i was hungover. and then Brian texted and was like "whattt your not gonna come home" or some shit like that and i didn't know what he was talking about because i was so hungover and then he clarified and i was like ohhh and i told him i didn't wanna be home and shit like that and he DID NOT take the news well. then i visited my grandmother who's at my mom's sister's house...i would say my aunt, but she's not an aunt to me. in my opinion you earn a name, aunt, sister, brother, etc.., by what you do. this woman has never done a single thing that makes her my aunt. i absolutely hate that bitch. she's a fucking motherfucker. my parents and i went out for dinner and that was fun.

monday, i slept a lot. ate a lot of junk food, like way way way way way too much and then went to the gym. and i started a 1000 piece puzzle. surprisingly my mother did not get mad at me. also my dad's family friends were like is it okay if we come on saturday or sunday and obviously my parents were like of course so that meant that on tuesday i had to clean all of my shit because on wednesday (today) the cleaning people were coming. i get these people are really important not just to my parents but in the world but still i just got home gimme a break.

tuesday. CLEANING MY SHIT! the end. and then i went to a restaurant with some friends. then when i got home cleaning some more. like a lot more and i had a shit load of fucking shit to clean. it was fucking intense. like not good. and my mom is in crazy bitch mode. so that does not help my case.

so there's my life since the last time i posted. today's post will be coming shortly.



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lust

so im in major lust. like it's so not me and so unhealthy. like i don't know what to do with myself. my friends keep making fun of me for obsessing so much. and i know it's not right, but what do i do? like i just wanna fuck him once. i mean if it's good then maybe again, but i really just wanna do it once with him. im sooo obsessed like i was legit shaking, it's so bad. today i told my friend Hanah about him, and she saw him and gave me a condom. like seriously what do i do with myself? and Rebecca and her best friend, Geoffery, keep making fun of me: the shaking, the obsession, and everything else. i can't take this anymore. i need to do something, but i don't know what to do. i can't think straight and i leave on friday, fml.



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i don't like the subway

so i wasn't able to post what i really wanted to yesterday, so im doing it now. and its also for my writing class which is why everything is correct.

I do not like the subway. There are so many people that ride it that just need some help.
On Friday my friend, Steffany was celebrating her birthday, so for dinner ten of us went to this Dominican restaurant in Washington Heights. On our way back we encountered some trouble on the subway. One guy, about 35 maybe 40, started hitting on my friend and she just giggled and acted aloof. Another guy, who was also around the same age, started starring at Steffany, and she called him out on it and said, “Can I help you?”
And he replied with “Oh you think you’re so special because you got flowers.” At this point we got one of the guys in our group, Charles, to switch places with Steffany, and the guy that was hitting on her started cursing at him.
Charles said “Listen I don’t want an argument, I don’t want a fight, just leave her alone.”
And the guy continued to throw curses back at him saying, “Fuck you. Go back to your bitch.” Charles went over to Steffany and the guy started saying shit about her, and that was when I got pissed.
I said to him, “Don’t be talking shit about my friends.” He started cursing at me, but thankfully our stop was the next one so we all got off. And then he realized that there were ten of us in the group.



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life

so i didn't post yesterday because it was strawberry fest. which was fun fyi. and ill update you all later. finals are kicking my ass and i wanna fuck butt guy what's new?


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