Patriots vs. Falcons

one day this week i can't remember which day, i was at a party and made a song. please note i was very very drunk. we were all watching the Patriots and Falcons game. and i was taking a shot for every time the Falcons scored, one shot for field goals and two for touchdowns. that was not getting me drunk fast enough lol. the final score was like 28-9 Patriots....AKA three shots. so during the game some friends and i decided to start up some tequila pong. boy was that fun. and i was doing that Rebecca texted me and i didn't have my phone. so James was talking to her. and who knows what the fuck he said to her.
all i have to say is im so glad it's football season!



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Brian.

so yesterday Brian came over. and we talked about every single thing ever possible. we talked about how him and Natalie are done. and we talked ALOT about Rebecca. ooo and i straightened his hair. hahaha. and we just talked for like hours. and im pretty sure he's officially gonna visit me over labor day weekend. and then we talked a lot about football. the steelers suck. suck like major major major cock. FUCK THE STEELERS! we talked about my Atlantic City story. and i heard quite a few of drunk Brian stories. Brian and Rebecca really need to hook up. like for real. Geoffery and i have it all figured out. we're just gonna lose them on accident. hahaha. it will be awesome. like so epic. i can just picture it. Geoffery and i were also talking about how their kids would look! like seriously...talk about gorgeous kids.



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day four.

i don't remember if i mentioned this. but since friday night/saturday morning i have not had a single drink. Rebecca left for Canada on Saturday and i told her i wouldn't get drunk until she got back. and today is day four. and so far i am successful. it hasn't been that hard because every night im hanging out with my friends so it's really working out. =]



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stuff

Rebecca is leaving my ass again!!!!! what the fuck. i know right. it's ridic. she went to cancun for two weeks and now this. this is unacceptable. but anyway. i have made a deal with myself. from tomorrow to next saturday i will not get drunk. today is not the same case. today im going all out. woohoo. party party party. ohh and im soo fucking kicking Brian's ass. i can't deal with him right now. ughh. he's being a motherfucker. he won't visit me in nyc =[. but hopefully ill convince him.


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last night

yesterday i talked to Rebecca for a long while. and i also texted drunk Brian. god i fucking love drunk Brian. we were talking about him visiting me and i also told him me and Rebecca were talking about him and this is what he said "no bus is good haha reeally what are you guys talking about and im much better in a swim suit" someone wants to get with Rebecca and its gonna fucking happen.


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marathon or Halloween with Katie?

so today i am going to continue posting about the dilemma which i am in...whether or not i should run the Baltimore half marathon. so i think i figured out why im a bit apprehensive about it. and that is because for Halloween i was planning on visiting Katie at her school. and Halloween is two weekends after the half marathon. so if i go home to run this then im not sure if ill be able to see Katie over Halloween. i know i need to set my priorities straight, but still i really would like to see Katie at some point during the next semester. oh and apparently i didn't tell Rebski about my little plan about running a marathon and she called me crazy. is it really that crazy? because i don't think so. i mean i do a lot more crazier shit than that. anyhow. if any of you who are reading this has an opinion going either way, tell me =].



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in other news

now i need to catch you all up on my life aside from partying. on the fourth i talked to Brian, and he told me he got a girl. he's been with her for a week. and he didn't fucking tell me. and so now i need to tell Rebski that my dream of her and Brian is gonna have to wait. and prob wait for awhile. Brian is like fucking in love with this chick. and he normally has relationships that last a long while. so unless something goes wrong, my dream is gonna have to wait for a long while, UNLESS when Brian comes up to visit me, drunk Brian and drunk Rebski do something. now that is possible. most people are whores when they are drunk. so it is very possible. Brian drinks enough, and ill give him some poppers because those fuck you up real good. and ill get the bartender to put extra rum in Rebski's pina colada. haha. i hope Rebski does not read my blog.


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today

first thing first: last night should not have happened, especially since i had to be at work at 10:30.
secondly: i am pissed as fuck at fucking Brian.
third: i feel like i am about to die.

last night as you all know i went to a party. and as all of you know i tend to drink a lot when i drink. id say i had about ten drinks in all, a few poppers, a few rum screwdrivers, and lots of vodka. and as a result drunk Priya was out and about. my friend's ipod was on shuffle and this song "Hey" by Lil Jon and 3OH!3 came on. the first time around only a select few had heard it. and we ALL loved it so much that we decided we HAD to replay it. at one point in the song Lil Jon goes, "SHOT SHOT SHOT SHOT!" and there were about forty of us at this party and when that part came on, someone came up with the fabulous idea to take four shots at that part. now no where near did we have 160 shot glasses. so SOLO CUPS. in one cup there were four shots so you could just drink four times when the "SHOT SHOT SHOT SHOT" part came on. since we were short on time, the song is only 3:45 minutes long, and we had to make forty drinks in that time i wasn't the only one mixing drinks. so one of my friends, who was making my drink decided that instead of giving me four shots to give me six. and i had already had two drinks, so more alcohol in me was really really really not needed. anyhow drunk Priya= whore Priya. although last night i was more of a make-out whore than anything else. so i stayed over at my friends house and for some reason after going to bed at four i woke up at fucking six!! and i only got fucking two fucking hours of fucking sleep. and Brian, Rebecca, and my friend's ex-boyfriend were all in my dream. it was really weird because i don't talk to the ex-boyfriend at all. like we're facebook friends and such but we never talk. i haven't talked to him in a good year and a half. at least. so i went home and then drank LOTS and LOTS and LOTS of water to get rid of that awful hangover, which worked. and then i went to the gym for a bit. normally hungover people shouldn't work out, but for me somehow it helps me get back to normal. i have no clue why that is, but it works for me so i put it to use. and then i went to work and then the mall with my mom.

Brian fucking William fucking Beisel. i am sooo fucking pissed off at him it's not even fucking funny. yesterday we were supposed to hang out and i woke up at noon, because i was hungover, although not too badly, to text him to see what time we were gonna hang, and he said he had to do something but after that. and then i told him to call me an hour before so i could get ready and stuff because i was going back to sleep. the fucker never called or texted me back and we did not hang out yesterday. i know why this is making me soo mad even though it shouldn't. i mean it's really not that big of a deal, but he should have had the decency to call or text me and say "hey i can't hang out today" or something along those lines. anyhow. im really really mad at him. i wish i wasn't so mad about it.

so i have my calculus final this week. and it is gonna kill me. like seriously. i don't get what we did last class. but i did something a little different to get the right answers to the homework. which is okay, unless she asks us to do it the certain way, which i don't get. but other than that i get it so far. but i still feel like it is going to kick my ass. first because i get test anxiety. and second because i don't want to ask Brian for help because i am soo fucking mad at him. but if i need it i'll probably just get over myself and ask him. anyway. im really freaking out about this final because i need to get an A. yes i did fine on the midterm, but the final is more about the stuff after the midterm than before. i mean i still need to know the stuff from before the midterm, but it's gonna be more about the stuff after. so i really really really need to concentrate. and not party monday, tuesday, and wednesday night. tonight i might i might not. im not quite sure how im feeling about it right now.



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yay

sorry for the late post, but i just finished my calc homework. which by the way i have no clue what i did. anyway. today, well technically yesterday, i got my midterm back i got a 200 out of 210. but she curved it and said to divide the grade you got by 2 and that'll be the percentage. so basically i just got a 100% on my fucking midterm! woohoo. but im still gonna freak out about the final. no doubt about that. which by the way is next friday.
in other news, i talked to Rebski and Brian today. im still not sure when she is coming down, but she deffffff is coming in july. that is for fucking sure. otherwise i will go up to Philly and bring her down myself. today Brian asked about Rebski, but that is probably because i mentioned her. that's all i really have for today. now im gonna go to bed because i have been up since fucking five in the fucking morning because i couldn't go back to sleep.



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Brian

it was sooooooooo nice seeing Brian today. we just talked for like ever and ever he was here for like three hours and we just caught up on life. and we talked about Rebecca and him getting together. Brian said he needed a girl, so Rebecca it is. and when she comes down Geoffery is gonna come too. and then the four of us are gonna do something. i can't wait till then it'll be sooooo damn funnn. me and Brian talked about everything today. and i mean everything: girls/guys, energy drinks, drinking, Rebecca, Geoffery, smoking, school, and people. and hopefully i'll be seeing more of Brian next week. it's been mad long since i've seen him.



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life

yesterday i meant to post something about another dream i had the night before last, which also happens to be one of my dreams from last night, but i forgot =[. first off, today i was very excited that my calculus class ended early. secondly, today at work everyone, and i mean EVERYONE loved my shoes. and my manager loved my jeans even though they weren't Loft. and another good thing i get to see Brian today! like in an hour or two. but im still having those dreams. and yesterday Rebski suggested to limit the coffee, and i feel like she guilt tripped me. so today, i only had three cups of coffee so far. that's like a major record for me!
anyway. so my dream last night and the night before last. i don't remember much of it. all i remember is Rebski, Brian, me, and a bunch of other people at a bar. and Brian and I were pressuring Rebski to drink more. and we told the bartender to add extra Bacardi to her pina coladas, which he did! it was great. she was piss fucking drunk!!!! like drunken beyond belief. and when we were going home (she lived like a block away from me) Brian had to carry her. and we decided to let her sleep in my apartment because she was so so so hammered. and that is all i remember =[.
anyway. these dreams need to stop. hopefully today they will. like seriously i really really hope so. because this is beyond ridiculous. like seriously.



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ughhhh

okay. so this is getting beyond ridic. last night i had another dream. Rebski was in this one, as was Brian. so me and Rebski were in med school together, and i believe we were in New York City, and Brian wanted to visit me because apparently i hadn't seen him in forever. so i told him to come up after the huge exam Rebski and i were having. and so he did. and normally Rebski is all about NOT drinking sorrows away, but this time her and i were drinking our sorrows away. and there were some other people with us, who i couldn't recognize and/or don't remember. and me and Rebski lived really close to each other. so her, me, and Brian walked back together, and boy were we drunk out of our minds. and i should mention that Brian had a serious girlfriend, because i asked him when they were gonna get married. and anyway. i slept with Brian, which i guess could be blamed on the alcohol; even though i would never do that, even if i was that drunk...well id like to think that. and then the next morning i couldn't remember shit. and we fucked again. and that time there wasn't any alcohol. i wouldn't do that. so i have no clue what these dreams mean. but someone please help me. because this is driving me crazy!



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on old friend i missed dearly

so today i woke up at like noon. i thought i had to go to Giant to get some stuff but i didn't. so i basically woke up early for no reason! well i mean there was a reason but yeah. anyway. today i saw KATIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeahhh i love this chica! ive known her for like seven years, she's like one of my best friends. she was supposed to come to my house, but i went to hers instead. and like always we watched Friends, and talked about life. i told her multiple stories the one where the woman SAT on me in the subway, the one where i drank too much, the one with Brian and his ex and Geoffery and Rebecca and that whole mess, and then a bunch of stories about butt guy and the library. i missed the Katie in my life, and now she's back.
and ummm today is Pacman's birthday and Google is fucking amazing! i sat there playing it for a long long while. and then of course i filled out more job applications. wooohoooo. NOT!!



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life

so today im really not sure what i did besides go to the gym. that's partially because i woke up at noon. so while i was at the gym Rebecca texted me saying that our chemistry grades were up. and yes i got an A. so there's only one grade that i don't know which is kinda really driving me crazy because it should be up. grades are due from professors 72 hours after the exam. this exam was right after chemistry so it should be up. so NYU is kinda pissing me off. in other news today i when i was making my lunch i realized it was thursday and every thursday i have lunch with Alec, or coffee, or well i at least see him. but that didn't happen today. also i kinda really miss all my NYU friends and going through New York City withdrawal is not helping my case.



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updates updates updates

so i haven't blogged in literally a week, i've just been so busy with finals and getting home and stuff, so here's to one long post.

so tuesday i was major major major freaking out about my chemistry exam that was on thursday. and to add to that my friend Geoffery decided to drop the bomb: he knew my friend Brian. and i have mentioned Brian multiple times, because for some reason i really think that Rebecca and Brian need to hook up. i have no clue why, but i really think they need to get together. so Rebecca, Geoffery, and me are sitting at this table in the library, and we're in the area where we can talk. and then Geoffery says, "I know Brian Beisel, well im not sure if it's the same one but i know one" and im like "WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!? Describe him!" and he goes "tall, average weight, curly brown hair" and im like "OHHH MYYYYY GODDDDDDD!!!!" he says he knew Brian from an orchestra camp in Philly when he was a freshmen so i text Brian "so did you go to an orchestra camp when you were a sophomore in Philly?" and Brian's like "how did you know thattt?!?!?!" i felt like a complete creeper so i called him and told him what was going on and i also told him about Rebecca and he was like "send me a picture of the both of them" so i did. and the idiot thought that Rebecca was also from the camp and i was like "nooooo she's the girl im trying to set you up with." and then he was like "what prompted this?" so i had to tell him the story about how his ex-girlfriend asked me about how i like nyu and i couldn't fucking lie to her because i fucking love nyu. im sooo fucking happy there. so i basically told her the truth, and i thought that i convinced her to come to nyu. and me and Brian talked for a bit and i was hoping he would never hear this story but clearly that didn't happen.

so wednesday i was major freaking the fuck out about chemistry. like for real. in a twenty-four time period, i had ten coffees, two vibrancy drinks, and a cig, i don't even smoke! i told Brian about this and i was like im gonna die and i told him what i did and he said that he would kill me. but he'd never do that; he loves me. anyway i was studying my ass off with Rebecca and Hanah. Rebecca, Geoffery, and me also got frozen yogurt when we were taking a study break. and that day in the library i was so much in the zone to the point that i couldn't hear my friends calling me and the other reason is probably that i had my music on really loud. and i still think that i failed my exam.

thursday, i had to turn my take home final exam. and then when i was walking to the building i realized i forgot to print out my works cited page. and then i went to library printed it out and turned it in. then i slept for a few hours and i got lunch with Alec and freaked the fuck out because i had my chemistry exam and then right after i had another exam. and i think i did alright on that exam. so after my exams i hit the library up again with Rebecca. and Hanah said she was treating me to frozen yogurt, but i don't let people treat me i just let them think that they will treat me. and then after we went back to the library for some chemistry fun. and then this guy Matt was also there. i don't think i've mentioned him, but he used me for chemistry and to get to Rebecca (he wants her so bad like it's sooooo funny, and she really doesn't want him. and im trying to get her with Brian) and for Starbucks. i don't remember when this happened but we were in the library and i was being polite because that's just me unless you give me a reason to be mean, which many people do. anyway so i was like im going to Starbucks anyone want anything (anyone being Matt and Rebecca) and Matt was like "yeah i'll have a grande iced caramel machiato" i was expecting him to pay me back but he didn't. so finally on thursday i was like pay me back, and by the way, he was drinking in the library, and smelt like ughhhhh. like i hate the smell of beer, any other alcohol is fine just not beer. i hate beer the smell the taste everything. who the fuck fucking drinks in a fucking library? like for real. so i asked him for my money which he did give back thankfully, otherwise he would've gotten a piece of me. then at like three the upper areas of the library were closing and Geoffery, Rebecca, and me were going to leave then. just then Annie told me butt guy was downstairs sitting right across from her i didn't want to see him, but then i had to. i ended up walking almost all the way back to my dorm with Rebecca and Geoffery but then i turned around went right back to the library to stare at him like a creeper..not really. i actually did study for my chemistry lab final. ughhh i really wanna tapp that shittttt, but that's not gonna happen now is it? so i was at the library till 5:30 and i went to bed at 6 woke up at 7.

and now on to friday. like i said i woke up at seven so basically an hour of sleep, and i was leaving, and i had literally nothing packed, and didn't sell my books, and i hadn't been to the gym in three days. so i was not in a good mood. anyway i had to go to Bath and Body Works, to pick up my mom's Mother's Day gift and to Papyrus to get a card. and i had a few other things to do. i did them, went to lunch with Hanah and Rebecca and Geoffery also came. then we all went to our exam and i got out of their asap. like i couldn't deal with that shit. and so i left sold my books and began freaking the fuck out. i didn't have anything packed. all i had done was getting the posters off of my wall. and i texted Hanah, Annie, Steffany, Alec, Geoffery, and Rebecca that i was in my room and i needed help! and Hanah-bless her heart- my parents would have killed me if it weren't for her. she literally packed everything for me. and when my parents were stuck in the Holland Tunnel i did a little bhangra for Rebecca, Alejandra, and Geoffery. my parents picked me up and that's when it hit me. i really do not want to leave new york city. im in love with it, and i don't think i'll ever want to leave. i told this to Brian who was drunk at formal and he seemed to take it well.

saturday. well i slept for like twelve hours because i was sooooo sleep deprived. i saw Lisa too. and obviously i was obnoxious as ever at Barnes & Noble (what's new there?) it was nice seeing her. i hadn't seen her in forever. and then that night i went to a friends house. and you all know that i am a light weight. we were playing an intense round of vodka/orange juice pong...which i did fucking win but i thought it would be a good idea to chugg the rest. and then i had two coconut rum and orange juices. and then James told me some stuff about this bitch which you guys do not know about, and that made me sad so my friends were like petron!!! tequilla!!! so i had seven drinks but thankfully i kept eating so i didn't get sick. and i remember everything!! so it's all good.

sunday. that was Mother's Day, and i was hungover. and then Brian texted and was like "whattt your not gonna come home" or some shit like that and i didn't know what he was talking about because i was so hungover and then he clarified and i was like ohhh and i told him i didn't wanna be home and shit like that and he DID NOT take the news well. then i visited my grandmother who's at my mom's sister's house...i would say my aunt, but she's not an aunt to me. in my opinion you earn a name, aunt, sister, brother, etc.., by what you do. this woman has never done a single thing that makes her my aunt. i absolutely hate that bitch. she's a fucking motherfucker. my parents and i went out for dinner and that was fun.

monday, i slept a lot. ate a lot of junk food, like way way way way way too much and then went to the gym. and i started a 1000 piece puzzle. surprisingly my mother did not get mad at me. also my dad's family friends were like is it okay if we come on saturday or sunday and obviously my parents were like of course so that meant that on tuesday i had to clean all of my shit because on wednesday (today) the cleaning people were coming. i get these people are really important not just to my parents but in the world but still i just got home gimme a break.

tuesday. CLEANING MY SHIT! the end. and then i went to a restaurant with some friends. then when i got home cleaning some more. like a lot more and i had a shit load of fucking shit to clean. it was fucking intense. like not good. and my mom is in crazy bitch mode. so that does not help my case.

so there's my life since the last time i posted. today's post will be coming shortly.



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lust

so im in major lust. like it's so not me and so unhealthy. like i don't know what to do with myself. my friends keep making fun of me for obsessing so much. and i know it's not right, but what do i do? like i just wanna fuck him once. i mean if it's good then maybe again, but i really just wanna do it once with him. im sooo obsessed like i was legit shaking, it's so bad. today i told my friend Hanah about him, and she saw him and gave me a condom. like seriously what do i do with myself? and Rebecca and her best friend, Geoffery, keep making fun of me: the shaking, the obsession, and everything else. i can't take this anymore. i need to do something, but i don't know what to do. i can't think straight and i leave on friday, fml.



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today

so today i asked my best friend here, Alec, who i don't think i have mentioned, to help me and my situation. and i have to say, he is crazy. he gave me two options, asking butt guy to coffee or just straight up asking him if he wants to fuck, because Alec knows i just want to fuck him once. and option one, im too much of a pussy to do that. like seriously, im not like that with anyone except a person i like. and option two, if i can't do option one how the hell am i gonna do option two. i really want to ask him to coffee when we are both studying and need a break, but i don't know if i have enough balls to do that.
then, in chemistry when i told Rebecca about what Alec said she just laughed and asked me if i was gonna do any of them. i told her im too much of a pussy. and Craig and this other kid Kevin were also there and Craig called me a guy, which i know i am because i just want to fuck this guy once and how much i curse and many other things i do.
so life is just not floating my boat right now, because i also have finals to deal with.


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help me! please

so today i have decided that i need help. like major help. more like major major major fucking help. like i think all of my psych major friends, which by the way im prob majoring in too, need to get together and then help my fucking ass. like what im going through right now is not at all me. at all. im fucking in love with a guy i barely know. yes he's totally my type, but damn i can't be dealing with this right now. and i generally fall for personality, and i have talked to him enough to know what he's like, and that just makes him soooooo much more fucking attractive. like seriously. he's the "bad boy" type, which i love.
yesterday when i texted Rebecca and said that he's that type she responded with "ohhh you mean the ones that you should be staying away fromm......????!" and obviously i responded with "stfuuuuuu im in loveee i go for what im attracted too and thats him" and what did she say? "wellllll that sounds like a disaster in the making hah" and you know im not at all denying that. it is. whenever there's a "bad boy" type involved it's most likely a disaster in the making. which is probably another reason why i have yet to have a long term relationship. i always fall for them and then it get messy and then we're both like damn we fucked up and then we become friends. we never go back out again, because i believe once it's over it's over. i don't see a point in trying again, unless it's like some serious love.
anyway. im in love, and im not sure how to either get him or get over him.



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work

so this weekend, i was in Chicago, and i didn't do any homework. and i have finals coming up...like in a week. i have sooo much work to do it's not even funny. today Rebecca and I made a plan of what we're gonna do every day. we are in chemistry together and we study together...that was a weird sentence...two togethers...anyway. i have a pretty detailed schedule for the rest of the semester. it's intense. and ill be spending lots of time in the library, so hopefully ill get to see butt guy. so till May 7th my posts will probably be pretty short, because i have one 10 page essay, five 2 page essays, and lots of other studying to do. and for the rest of you who are also in the same boat as me, good luck!



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my day today

so today i woke up at 6, because for some reason my body thinks that six hours of sleep is the perfect amount for me. i beg to differ, but that's not quite the point. anyway. so at 6 i was like damn i can still sleep another hour or two. so i went back to bed, and i woke up at 7. i was hoping for a little later, but ill take what i can get. right? anyhow. i was meeting Rebecca up at Starbucks, to go over lab. and while we were there guess who popped up in the window?? butt guy obviously. he was smoking a cigarette and then walked in. and damn he's so gorgeous. Rebecca felt the need to make fun of me because im sooo fucking obsessed with him. and the sad thing is, he's a senior. chances are im not gonna see much of him after the next few weeks. and the saddest thing is i still don't know his fucking name. but i told myself, the next time i talk to him, which today i didn't, i will ask his name. so then i thought today would be a good day. NOT! in lab i felt like i was dying. my left knee was killing the shit outta me. and then when i went to the health center, after sitting around for an hour and a half, they told me i have tendinitis. isn't that lovely? not really but whatever. anyway. then i had my meeting with my adviser and i love that guy. we talked for forever, about random shit and important shit. and then i went to my writing class, and then somehow i was able to make it to the MET after my class ending early at 430. how idk. i just think im lucky.



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