the fifth of July

normally on big holidays (New Years, 4th of July, end of summer party, beginning of summer party) we try to keep our parties pretty mellow. and then the day after we go all out crazy, but clearly we didn't do that this time on the fourth. this year on the fifth we went beyond crazy. the area in which i generally party is this rich ass area, where parties rarely get broken because the houses are so spread apart that the neighbors can't hear anything. aka parties not getting broken. and the party we had on the fifth did not get broken but it was one of the best house parties that i have ever been to. and i have been to my fair share of parties. they had everything. all the alcohol you could imagine, all the extra stuff for drinks ever possible, and about five tables of beer/vodka/rum/tequila pong. we even took the party outside onto the lawn and the trampoline. we even lit some firecrackers behind the house. and no one called the cops on us. basically it was mad fun. and like always my phone was taken away. im not sure if i mentioned this before but when i drunk text, people can't tell im drunk texting, because everything is spelled right. so they think im sober, when im really not. and then the next morning i don't remember texting them, and then it's kinda hard to figure out what i said when i don't remember texting them, and i always clear my inbox when im drunk. it's really weird. but whatever. it was a great party.


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life and it's strange things

so last night i had the strangest dream ever possible. Brian was over at my house at around one or two in the morning because he wanted to talk about stuff going on in his life. and we talked for like ever; i don't remember what was going on in his life. all i remember is telling him he needs to get some fucking shit taken care off. and then at like three my parents start to roll up the drive way. and im like ill just tell them Courtney had to leave her car here. but Brian had to ruin it by not hiding, so my parents saw him and asked him why he was there. and he said in the most depressing voice ever fucking possible "i just needed some life help" or something along those lines. and then i woke up.
the scary thing about this is sometimes my dreams come true. so at 7:30 in the morning before i left for my fucking calculus class i texted Brian, "Hey i know its mad early but are okay? Im not trying to be creepy or anything, i just had the strangest dream about you last night." and he told me he was fine and work is taking over his life.
also today, calculus started =[. i really am not looking forward to this shit. like seriously, the woman teaching it can't even speak english and she's a second year graduate student. there is something wrong with that. after that i had to do some random shit around campus, parking permit, j-card, getting my textbook...you get the flow. then i came home, bought the book off of Half for $60 and not $130. and then went to Courtney's house and then to Tutti Frutti. then i went back to her house and we watched this movie based on Dragon Ball-Z, which was decent.



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life

so today im really not sure what i did besides go to the gym. that's partially because i woke up at noon. so while i was at the gym Rebecca texted me saying that our chemistry grades were up. and yes i got an A. so there's only one grade that i don't know which is kinda really driving me crazy because it should be up. grades are due from professors 72 hours after the exam. this exam was right after chemistry so it should be up. so NYU is kinda pissing me off. in other news today i when i was making my lunch i realized it was thursday and every thursday i have lunch with Alec, or coffee, or well i at least see him. but that didn't happen today. also i kinda really miss all my NYU friends and going through New York City withdrawal is not helping my case.



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updates updates updates

so i haven't blogged in literally a week, i've just been so busy with finals and getting home and stuff, so here's to one long post.

so tuesday i was major major major freaking out about my chemistry exam that was on thursday. and to add to that my friend Geoffery decided to drop the bomb: he knew my friend Brian. and i have mentioned Brian multiple times, because for some reason i really think that Rebecca and Brian need to hook up. i have no clue why, but i really think they need to get together. so Rebecca, Geoffery, and me are sitting at this table in the library, and we're in the area where we can talk. and then Geoffery says, "I know Brian Beisel, well im not sure if it's the same one but i know one" and im like "WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!? Describe him!" and he goes "tall, average weight, curly brown hair" and im like "OHHH MYYYYY GODDDDDDD!!!!" he says he knew Brian from an orchestra camp in Philly when he was a freshmen so i text Brian "so did you go to an orchestra camp when you were a sophomore in Philly?" and Brian's like "how did you know thattt?!?!?!" i felt like a complete creeper so i called him and told him what was going on and i also told him about Rebecca and he was like "send me a picture of the both of them" so i did. and the idiot thought that Rebecca was also from the camp and i was like "nooooo she's the girl im trying to set you up with." and then he was like "what prompted this?" so i had to tell him the story about how his ex-girlfriend asked me about how i like nyu and i couldn't fucking lie to her because i fucking love nyu. im sooo fucking happy there. so i basically told her the truth, and i thought that i convinced her to come to nyu. and me and Brian talked for a bit and i was hoping he would never hear this story but clearly that didn't happen.

so wednesday i was major freaking the fuck out about chemistry. like for real. in a twenty-four time period, i had ten coffees, two vibrancy drinks, and a cig, i don't even smoke! i told Brian about this and i was like im gonna die and i told him what i did and he said that he would kill me. but he'd never do that; he loves me. anyway i was studying my ass off with Rebecca and Hanah. Rebecca, Geoffery, and me also got frozen yogurt when we were taking a study break. and that day in the library i was so much in the zone to the point that i couldn't hear my friends calling me and the other reason is probably that i had my music on really loud. and i still think that i failed my exam.

thursday, i had to turn my take home final exam. and then when i was walking to the building i realized i forgot to print out my works cited page. and then i went to library printed it out and turned it in. then i slept for a few hours and i got lunch with Alec and freaked the fuck out because i had my chemistry exam and then right after i had another exam. and i think i did alright on that exam. so after my exams i hit the library up again with Rebecca. and Hanah said she was treating me to frozen yogurt, but i don't let people treat me i just let them think that they will treat me. and then after we went back to the library for some chemistry fun. and then this guy Matt was also there. i don't think i've mentioned him, but he used me for chemistry and to get to Rebecca (he wants her so bad like it's sooooo funny, and she really doesn't want him. and im trying to get her with Brian) and for Starbucks. i don't remember when this happened but we were in the library and i was being polite because that's just me unless you give me a reason to be mean, which many people do. anyway so i was like im going to Starbucks anyone want anything (anyone being Matt and Rebecca) and Matt was like "yeah i'll have a grande iced caramel machiato" i was expecting him to pay me back but he didn't. so finally on thursday i was like pay me back, and by the way, he was drinking in the library, and smelt like ughhhhh. like i hate the smell of beer, any other alcohol is fine just not beer. i hate beer the smell the taste everything. who the fuck fucking drinks in a fucking library? like for real. so i asked him for my money which he did give back thankfully, otherwise he would've gotten a piece of me. then at like three the upper areas of the library were closing and Geoffery, Rebecca, and me were going to leave then. just then Annie told me butt guy was downstairs sitting right across from her i didn't want to see him, but then i had to. i ended up walking almost all the way back to my dorm with Rebecca and Geoffery but then i turned around went right back to the library to stare at him like a creeper..not really. i actually did study for my chemistry lab final. ughhh i really wanna tapp that shittttt, but that's not gonna happen now is it? so i was at the library till 5:30 and i went to bed at 6 woke up at 7.

and now on to friday. like i said i woke up at seven so basically an hour of sleep, and i was leaving, and i had literally nothing packed, and didn't sell my books, and i hadn't been to the gym in three days. so i was not in a good mood. anyway i had to go to Bath and Body Works, to pick up my mom's Mother's Day gift and to Papyrus to get a card. and i had a few other things to do. i did them, went to lunch with Hanah and Rebecca and Geoffery also came. then we all went to our exam and i got out of their asap. like i couldn't deal with that shit. and so i left sold my books and began freaking the fuck out. i didn't have anything packed. all i had done was getting the posters off of my wall. and i texted Hanah, Annie, Steffany, Alec, Geoffery, and Rebecca that i was in my room and i needed help! and Hanah-bless her heart- my parents would have killed me if it weren't for her. she literally packed everything for me. and when my parents were stuck in the Holland Tunnel i did a little bhangra for Rebecca, Alejandra, and Geoffery. my parents picked me up and that's when it hit me. i really do not want to leave new york city. im in love with it, and i don't think i'll ever want to leave. i told this to Brian who was drunk at formal and he seemed to take it well.

saturday. well i slept for like twelve hours because i was sooooo sleep deprived. i saw Lisa too. and obviously i was obnoxious as ever at Barnes & Noble (what's new there?) it was nice seeing her. i hadn't seen her in forever. and then that night i went to a friends house. and you all know that i am a light weight. we were playing an intense round of vodka/orange juice pong...which i did fucking win but i thought it would be a good idea to chugg the rest. and then i had two coconut rum and orange juices. and then James told me some stuff about this bitch which you guys do not know about, and that made me sad so my friends were like petron!!! tequilla!!! so i had seven drinks but thankfully i kept eating so i didn't get sick. and i remember everything!! so it's all good.

sunday. that was Mother's Day, and i was hungover. and then Brian texted and was like "whattt your not gonna come home" or some shit like that and i didn't know what he was talking about because i was so hungover and then he clarified and i was like ohhh and i told him i didn't wanna be home and shit like that and he DID NOT take the news well. then i visited my grandmother who's at my mom's sister's house...i would say my aunt, but she's not an aunt to me. in my opinion you earn a name, aunt, sister, brother, etc.., by what you do. this woman has never done a single thing that makes her my aunt. i absolutely hate that bitch. she's a fucking motherfucker. my parents and i went out for dinner and that was fun.

monday, i slept a lot. ate a lot of junk food, like way way way way way too much and then went to the gym. and i started a 1000 piece puzzle. surprisingly my mother did not get mad at me. also my dad's family friends were like is it okay if we come on saturday or sunday and obviously my parents were like of course so that meant that on tuesday i had to clean all of my shit because on wednesday (today) the cleaning people were coming. i get these people are really important not just to my parents but in the world but still i just got home gimme a break.

tuesday. CLEANING MY SHIT! the end. and then i went to a restaurant with some friends. then when i got home cleaning some more. like a lot more and i had a shit load of fucking shit to clean. it was fucking intense. like not good. and my mom is in crazy bitch mode. so that does not help my case.

so there's my life since the last time i posted. today's post will be coming shortly.



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thanks

yesterday, i was having issues with doing the pre-lab for my chemistry lab that was today. so i texted my friend, Craig, to see if he had done it and he hadn't. so he was like come over in half an hour, which i did. when i was in his room something on his desk caught my attention. it was a letter from his best friend; in one short word it was a thanks. a thanks for everything he did for her, how he helped her through the good, the bad and the ugly, how much he means to her, how much she loves him, and how great full she is for him to be in her life. it showed how much love someone can have for another without being in love, which we really need a lot more of in this world.
this letter was probably one of the two nicest things i have ever seen somebody write. the other being what this girl, Jordan, wrote for her eulogy when her best friend, Steve, one of my friends, past away. people, whenever you have something to say to someone just say it. please. you never know when it just might be too late, which in Jordan's case it was. if there's something you need to say don't wait, you never know what turns life might bring about.
back to his letter. when i read it i was almost put to tears. very rarely does someone receive something this meaningful. im glad i had the opportunity to read the letter Craig received. when i told him that's one of the sweetest things id ever read, he said "yeah isn't it? but im over it now." how anyone simply gets over something like that is beyond me.



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my mother

so today when i was sitting in chemistry lecture i received this text from my mom, "hi i just wanted to say i miss you and i have no one to do my nails with." every spring break my mom and i do each others nails; not just painting them but also adding designs and shit. so anyway i said something along the lines of "aww im sorry" and my mom replied to me with "im bored." and i said "im bored too" and my mom was like "why," and i said "im sitting in chemistry lecture and i've already learned this stuff." here is when things take a turn my mother, who is a teacher herself, tells me to ditch the class. and i tell her i cant because the professor is gonna take attendance. and then she says "alright bye" and im like "what? why are you leaving?" and she says something like, "i don't want you texting in class its disrespectful. isn't leaving more disrespectful? anyway. in short i love my mom, she's the most amazing woman i know.



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library

so today, just like every sunday, i had a shit load of work to do. and i didn't go to bed until literally five in the morning. so i was really fucking tired. anyway, i didn't wake up till one, which isn't too bad considering i went to bed at five. eight hours. that's a lot for me. i need three to be functional, but my ideal is six. so after i showered and ate i texted my friend, Rebecca, and asked her if we had chemistry homework and she said she did and that she was going to the library to do it. the homework should have taken maybe an hour or an hour and a half. but we were there till about eight. and all i got done was chemistry homework, some writing homework, and eating pinkberry.
at fiveish some of our friends were ordering pinkberry. and i was like i don't want any because i need to go to the gym and if i eat now i can't go till seven. but Rebecca wanted it and deep down inside i wanted it too. so then me and her went over to pinkberry and got our fro-yo. it was my first time getting it, and damn that was some good shit. it was like pure deliciousness. i got it with mochi, strawberries, and cookies and cream. so good. i can't believe i didn't know about it before. but i guess that's okay, because i know about it now. and im sure im going to become obsessed with it.



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eye candy

so now heres what happened thursday night!
me and my two friends were studying for chemistry and at one in the morning they close the top floors so only the ground floor and the two below are only open. so at one in the morning me and my friends went down to the lower floors to look for a place to sit, preferably a group room. there was one guy who was in a room for four or five and it was just him. guess who it was!....butt guy of course. so we go in and ask if we can sit in the room, and obviously he says yeah sure. and eventually we're all talking and stuff and hes obsessed with the gym and coffee like me and other drugs that are legal for building muscle and shit...nothing illegal. so now im thinking hes not as gay but still he's gay. then he tells this story about his roommate who was tripping on coke, and he said, thankfully i wasn't in the room i was down the hall hooking up with some chick. now i think he's bi. then, we all continue talking, and he told us about how he was rooming with the ra. and i was like damn that sucks. and he was like, yeah i asked him if i could drink and he said no, but i ended up getting wasted with him every weekend it was a little awkward because he was gay, but thats okay.
then i was like he's straight. and i texted my friend, Rebecca, who was in the room, and i was like i wanna tap that shit. and she made fun of me because he was not her type. anyway we were texting back and forth for awhile and i was making her crack up. so every five minutes or so she would laugh and we all would look at her. my other friend, annie, who was also with us, was like what's going on? and Rebecca was like read the texts that my friend is sending. Annie didn't get who was texting Rebecca for a few minutes. and anyway i don't think he knew Rebecca and me were texting back and forth. and the worst part was i couldn't concentrate because of all that eye candy.


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this is for thursday

so i didn't update because, i was really busy. so here's what i was going to write on thursday.

so i was uber uber excited about meeting my friends crush, but then on thursday morning i got a text from Lisa. she said that she wasn't feeling well. i felt really bad, but i was really really really MAD!!! because i really wanted to meet him. so anyway, i didn't get to meet him. so now i have to wait till May...if she even lets me go. i really hope she does. i promise i won't fuck uppppp!!!



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bribery

so today around nine at night i got a text from Lisa. and she said that she was hoping that one of our mutual friends would come with us tomorrow so that way i don't cause any trouble. but you know what the worst part is, Lisa said she might not take me and needless to say i was MAD. >:(
and then she said she might change her mind about taking me. i mean seriously?!?!? i really wont fuck it up...like seriously i promise. we're literally only gonna be there for five minutes. if im able to do something in five minutes then, damn im fucking awesome!! but i really cant do anything in that short period of time.
in hopes of trying to convince her to let me go i thought the art of bribery would work. so i gave it a shot. i tried bribing her with chocolate....IT DIDN'T WORKK!!!!! how can you not bribe someone with chocolate? if someone wanted to bribe me, just hand me over some Hershey's Cookies and Cream. and then, ill almost do anything. that stuff is soo good. i absolutely love it. it's like magic in my mouth, pure amazingness, and absolute deliciousness. now i really want some of that. but then there are always those days where chocolate doesn't quite work. so i mean maybe it was just one of those days for Lisa.
anyway. i just really hope she doesn't ditch me tomorrow. i deserve to meet this guy. so hopefully i will.


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