Showing posts with label butt guy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label butt guy. Show all posts

Friday, May 21, 2010

on old friend i missed dearly

so today i woke up at like noon. i thought i had to go to Giant to get some stuff but i didn't. so i basically woke up early for no reason! well i mean there was a reason but yeah. anyway. today i saw KATIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeahhh i love this chica! ive known her for like seven years, she's like one of my best friends. she was supposed to come to my house, but i went to hers instead. and like always we watched Friends, and talked about life. i told her multiple stories the one where the woman SAT on me in the subway, the one where i drank too much, the one with Brian and his ex and Geoffery and Rebecca and that whole mess, and then a bunch of stories about butt guy and the library. i missed the Katie in my life, and now she's back.
and ummm today is Pacman's birthday and Google is fucking amazing! i sat there playing it for a long long while. and then of course i filled out more job applications. wooohoooo. NOT!!



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Wednesday, May 12, 2010

updates updates updates

so i haven't blogged in literally a week, i've just been so busy with finals and getting home and stuff, so here's to one long post.

so tuesday i was major major major freaking out about my chemistry exam that was on thursday. and to add to that my friend Geoffery decided to drop the bomb: he knew my friend Brian. and i have mentioned Brian multiple times, because for some reason i really think that Rebecca and Brian need to hook up. i have no clue why, but i really think they need to get together. so Rebecca, Geoffery, and me are sitting at this table in the library, and we're in the area where we can talk. and then Geoffery says, "I know Brian Beisel, well im not sure if it's the same one but i know one" and im like "WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!? Describe him!" and he goes "tall, average weight, curly brown hair" and im like "OHHH MYYYYY GODDDDDDD!!!!" he says he knew Brian from an orchestra camp in Philly when he was a freshmen so i text Brian "so did you go to an orchestra camp when you were a sophomore in Philly?" and Brian's like "how did you know thattt?!?!?!" i felt like a complete creeper so i called him and told him what was going on and i also told him about Rebecca and he was like "send me a picture of the both of them" so i did. and the idiot thought that Rebecca was also from the camp and i was like "nooooo she's the girl im trying to set you up with." and then he was like "what prompted this?" so i had to tell him the story about how his ex-girlfriend asked me about how i like nyu and i couldn't fucking lie to her because i fucking love nyu. im sooo fucking happy there. so i basically told her the truth, and i thought that i convinced her to come to nyu. and me and Brian talked for a bit and i was hoping he would never hear this story but clearly that didn't happen.

so wednesday i was major freaking the fuck out about chemistry. like for real. in a twenty-four time period, i had ten coffees, two vibrancy drinks, and a cig, i don't even smoke! i told Brian about this and i was like im gonna die and i told him what i did and he said that he would kill me. but he'd never do that; he loves me. anyway i was studying my ass off with Rebecca and Hanah. Rebecca, Geoffery, and me also got frozen yogurt when we were taking a study break. and that day in the library i was so much in the zone to the point that i couldn't hear my friends calling me and the other reason is probably that i had my music on really loud. and i still think that i failed my exam.

thursday, i had to turn my take home final exam. and then when i was walking to the building i realized i forgot to print out my works cited page. and then i went to library printed it out and turned it in. then i slept for a few hours and i got lunch with Alec and freaked the fuck out because i had my chemistry exam and then right after i had another exam. and i think i did alright on that exam. so after my exams i hit the library up again with Rebecca. and Hanah said she was treating me to frozen yogurt, but i don't let people treat me i just let them think that they will treat me. and then after we went back to the library for some chemistry fun. and then this guy Matt was also there. i don't think i've mentioned him, but he used me for chemistry and to get to Rebecca (he wants her so bad like it's sooooo funny, and she really doesn't want him. and im trying to get her with Brian) and for Starbucks. i don't remember when this happened but we were in the library and i was being polite because that's just me unless you give me a reason to be mean, which many people do. anyway so i was like im going to Starbucks anyone want anything (anyone being Matt and Rebecca) and Matt was like "yeah i'll have a grande iced caramel machiato" i was expecting him to pay me back but he didn't. so finally on thursday i was like pay me back, and by the way, he was drinking in the library, and smelt like ughhhhh. like i hate the smell of beer, any other alcohol is fine just not beer. i hate beer the smell the taste everything. who the fuck fucking drinks in a fucking library? like for real. so i asked him for my money which he did give back thankfully, otherwise he would've gotten a piece of me. then at like three the upper areas of the library were closing and Geoffery, Rebecca, and me were going to leave then. just then Annie told me butt guy was downstairs sitting right across from her i didn't want to see him, but then i had to. i ended up walking almost all the way back to my dorm with Rebecca and Geoffery but then i turned around went right back to the library to stare at him like a creeper..not really. i actually did study for my chemistry lab final. ughhh i really wanna tapp that shittttt, but that's not gonna happen now is it? so i was at the library till 5:30 and i went to bed at 6 woke up at 7.

and now on to friday. like i said i woke up at seven so basically an hour of sleep, and i was leaving, and i had literally nothing packed, and didn't sell my books, and i hadn't been to the gym in three days. so i was not in a good mood. anyway i had to go to Bath and Body Works, to pick up my mom's Mother's Day gift and to Papyrus to get a card. and i had a few other things to do. i did them, went to lunch with Hanah and Rebecca and Geoffery also came. then we all went to our exam and i got out of their asap. like i couldn't deal with that shit. and so i left sold my books and began freaking the fuck out. i didn't have anything packed. all i had done was getting the posters off of my wall. and i texted Hanah, Annie, Steffany, Alec, Geoffery, and Rebecca that i was in my room and i needed help! and Hanah-bless her heart- my parents would have killed me if it weren't for her. she literally packed everything for me. and when my parents were stuck in the Holland Tunnel i did a little bhangra for Rebecca, Alejandra, and Geoffery. my parents picked me up and that's when it hit me. i really do not want to leave new york city. im in love with it, and i don't think i'll ever want to leave. i told this to Brian who was drunk at formal and he seemed to take it well.

saturday. well i slept for like twelve hours because i was sooooo sleep deprived. i saw Lisa too. and obviously i was obnoxious as ever at Barnes & Noble (what's new there?) it was nice seeing her. i hadn't seen her in forever. and then that night i went to a friends house. and you all know that i am a light weight. we were playing an intense round of vodka/orange juice pong...which i did fucking win but i thought it would be a good idea to chugg the rest. and then i had two coconut rum and orange juices. and then James told me some stuff about this bitch which you guys do not know about, and that made me sad so my friends were like petron!!! tequilla!!! so i had seven drinks but thankfully i kept eating so i didn't get sick. and i remember everything!! so it's all good.

sunday. that was Mother's Day, and i was hungover. and then Brian texted and was like "whattt your not gonna come home" or some shit like that and i didn't know what he was talking about because i was so hungover and then he clarified and i was like ohhh and i told him i didn't wanna be home and shit like that and he DID NOT take the news well. then i visited my grandmother who's at my mom's sister's house...i would say my aunt, but she's not an aunt to me. in my opinion you earn a name, aunt, sister, brother, etc.., by what you do. this woman has never done a single thing that makes her my aunt. i absolutely hate that bitch. she's a fucking motherfucker. my parents and i went out for dinner and that was fun.

monday, i slept a lot. ate a lot of junk food, like way way way way way too much and then went to the gym. and i started a 1000 piece puzzle. surprisingly my mother did not get mad at me. also my dad's family friends were like is it okay if we come on saturday or sunday and obviously my parents were like of course so that meant that on tuesday i had to clean all of my shit because on wednesday (today) the cleaning people were coming. i get these people are really important not just to my parents but in the world but still i just got home gimme a break.

tuesday. CLEANING MY SHIT! the end. and then i went to a restaurant with some friends. then when i got home cleaning some more. like a lot more and i had a shit load of fucking shit to clean. it was fucking intense. like not good. and my mom is in crazy bitch mode. so that does not help my case.

so there's my life since the last time i posted. today's post will be coming shortly.



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Tuesday, May 4, 2010

lust

so im in major lust. like it's so not me and so unhealthy. like i don't know what to do with myself. my friends keep making fun of me for obsessing so much. and i know it's not right, but what do i do? like i just wanna fuck him once. i mean if it's good then maybe again, but i really just wanna do it once with him. im sooo obsessed like i was legit shaking, it's so bad. today i told my friend Hanah about him, and she saw him and gave me a condom. like seriously what do i do with myself? and Rebecca and her best friend, Geoffery, keep making fun of me: the shaking, the obsession, and everything else. i can't take this anymore. i need to do something, but i don't know what to do. i can't think straight and i leave on friday, fml.



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Saturday, May 1, 2010

life

so i didn't post yesterday because it was strawberry fest. which was fun fyi. and ill update you all later. finals are kicking my ass and i wanna fuck butt guy what's new?


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Thursday, April 29, 2010

today

so today i asked my best friend here, Alec, who i don't think i have mentioned, to help me and my situation. and i have to say, he is crazy. he gave me two options, asking butt guy to coffee or just straight up asking him if he wants to fuck, because Alec knows i just want to fuck him once. and option one, im too much of a pussy to do that. like seriously, im not like that with anyone except a person i like. and option two, if i can't do option one how the hell am i gonna do option two. i really want to ask him to coffee when we are both studying and need a break, but i don't know if i have enough balls to do that.
then, in chemistry when i told Rebecca about what Alec said she just laughed and asked me if i was gonna do any of them. i told her im too much of a pussy. and Craig and this other kid Kevin were also there and Craig called me a guy, which i know i am because i just want to fuck this guy once and how much i curse and many other things i do.
so life is just not floating my boat right now, because i also have finals to deal with.


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Wednesday, April 28, 2010

help me! please

so today i have decided that i need help. like major help. more like major major major fucking help. like i think all of my psych major friends, which by the way im prob majoring in too, need to get together and then help my fucking ass. like what im going through right now is not at all me. at all. im fucking in love with a guy i barely know. yes he's totally my type, but damn i can't be dealing with this right now. and i generally fall for personality, and i have talked to him enough to know what he's like, and that just makes him soooooo much more fucking attractive. like seriously. he's the "bad boy" type, which i love.
yesterday when i texted Rebecca and said that he's that type she responded with "ohhh you mean the ones that you should be staying away fromm......????!" and obviously i responded with "stfuuuuuu im in loveee i go for what im attracted too and thats him" and what did she say? "wellllll that sounds like a disaster in the making hah" and you know im not at all denying that. it is. whenever there's a "bad boy" type involved it's most likely a disaster in the making. which is probably another reason why i have yet to have a long term relationship. i always fall for them and then it get messy and then we're both like damn we fucked up and then we become friends. we never go back out again, because i believe once it's over it's over. i don't see a point in trying again, unless it's like some serious love.
anyway. im in love, and im not sure how to either get him or get over him.



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Tuesday, April 27, 2010

OMG

and i know his name..no im not gonna put it on here. im not that stupid. and his butt is really not that big. it is just that his designer jeans are sooo fucking fitted that they make it look big. i mean its not flat but its not like it's huge or anything. anyway im im love.


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Monday, April 26, 2010

work

so this weekend, i was in Chicago, and i didn't do any homework. and i have finals coming up...like in a week. i have sooo much work to do it's not even funny. today Rebecca and I made a plan of what we're gonna do every day. we are in chemistry together and we study together...that was a weird sentence...two togethers...anyway. i have a pretty detailed schedule for the rest of the semester. it's intense. and ill be spending lots of time in the library, so hopefully ill get to see butt guy. so till May 7th my posts will probably be pretty short, because i have one 10 page essay, five 2 page essays, and lots of other studying to do. and for the rest of you who are also in the same boat as me, good luck!



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Wednesday, April 21, 2010

my day today

so today i woke up at 6, because for some reason my body thinks that six hours of sleep is the perfect amount for me. i beg to differ, but that's not quite the point. anyway. so at 6 i was like damn i can still sleep another hour or two. so i went back to bed, and i woke up at 7. i was hoping for a little later, but ill take what i can get. right? anyhow. i was meeting Rebecca up at Starbucks, to go over lab. and while we were there guess who popped up in the window?? butt guy obviously. he was smoking a cigarette and then walked in. and damn he's so gorgeous. Rebecca felt the need to make fun of me because im sooo fucking obsessed with him. and the sad thing is, he's a senior. chances are im not gonna see much of him after the next few weeks. and the saddest thing is i still don't know his fucking name. but i told myself, the next time i talk to him, which today i didn't, i will ask his name. so then i thought today would be a good day. NOT! in lab i felt like i was dying. my left knee was killing the shit outta me. and then when i went to the health center, after sitting around for an hour and a half, they told me i have tendinitis. isn't that lovely? not really but whatever. anyway. then i had my meeting with my adviser and i love that guy. we talked for forever, about random shit and important shit. and then i went to my writing class, and then somehow i was able to make it to the MET after my class ending early at 430. how idk. i just think im lucky.



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Wednesday, April 14, 2010

last night

so last night i was once again in the library. i got there around nine, after going to the gym and i was there till literally 430. anyway i actually got A LOT of work done. i finished listening to this Martin Bashir interview with Michael Jackson and that took a long time because i had to get quotes and they talk so fast that i had to keep rewinding on Youtube to get the exact quotes. anyway. around 1100 my friend Annie came to see me. she was also at the library just on a different floor. and i told her i would come down around midnight. BUT at 1130ish i was like im coming now. and guess who was there....butt guy. and omg hes so fucking gorgeous. there was like too much eye candy going on. like way way way too much. and i actually got six pages done!! which brought my paper up to twelve pages when the minimum is seven...and im not even finished. i was planning on finishing, but i thought i should get two hours of sleep before my lab this morning. but i only have like maybe two or three pages left to write and then lots of editing. so despite butt guy being there, and all the eye candy, i still got a shitload of work done!!



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Monday, April 12, 2010

turns out im not mad

so today my recitation for chemistry got out way early because we didn't have any homework due nor did we have a quiz. the class starts at like two and we were out at 230-ish. anyway. so i walked back to my dorm to put my chemistry stuff away with my friend Craig. he told me to let him know when i was leaving and i said im leaving in a few minutes because i wanna get Starbucks, and he was like nevermind i have to eat. so i was like okay. and i didn't really feel like walking back just then so i thought id check my email. but then! Rebecca texted me, by the way im now calling her Rebz, and she was like "omgomgomgomgomgomgomg your bfannn is in bobst with me" and obviously i was like "omggg im cominggggg!!!" and i was sooooo happy she told me. and im beginning to think he's gay =[. i hope fucking not because damn id tap that shitttttt. and he's soooo fucking hot and listens to good music and has a great ass and dresses well, which yes is rare. but maybe i found one of the rare ones. i really hope so. anyway. back to the library. so when he left i left too and we got into the elevator together, and yes i did talk to him. and i forgot to ask his name again =[. but im glad Rebecca told me, because that my day =].



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Sunday, April 11, 2010

im mad

by the way i just thought that all of you should know im mad at Rebecca. she keeps seeing butt guy, and i haven't seen him in weeks which just makes me sad. he's not even her type, so she doesn't think he's hot or anything. i, on the other hand, think he's fucking gorgeous, and would totally tapp that shittttt. but noooo i never see him. first she saw him on thursday outside weinstein, which is a freshmen residence hall and dining hall, so i don't get why he would be there because he's a senior. maybe he was getting food or something. then she saw him on saturday at weinstein again in the dining hall. he was sitting at the table next to her. ughhhh i wanna see him =[. anyway ill get over it.

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Sunday, March 28, 2010

eye candy

so now heres what happened thursday night!
me and my two friends were studying for chemistry and at one in the morning they close the top floors so only the ground floor and the two below are only open. so at one in the morning me and my friends went down to the lower floors to look for a place to sit, preferably a group room. there was one guy who was in a room for four or five and it was just him. guess who it was!....butt guy of course. so we go in and ask if we can sit in the room, and obviously he says yeah sure. and eventually we're all talking and stuff and hes obsessed with the gym and coffee like me and other drugs that are legal for building muscle and shit...nothing illegal. so now im thinking hes not as gay but still he's gay. then he tells this story about his roommate who was tripping on coke, and he said, thankfully i wasn't in the room i was down the hall hooking up with some chick. now i think he's bi. then, we all continue talking, and he told us about how he was rooming with the ra. and i was like damn that sucks. and he was like, yeah i asked him if i could drink and he said no, but i ended up getting wasted with him every weekend it was a little awkward because he was gay, but thats okay.
then i was like he's straight. and i texted my friend, Rebecca, who was in the room, and i was like i wanna tap that shit. and she made fun of me because he was not her type. anyway we were texting back and forth for awhile and i was making her crack up. so every five minutes or so she would laugh and we all would look at her. my other friend, annie, who was also with us, was like what's going on? and Rebecca was like read the texts that my friend is sending. Annie didn't get who was texting Rebecca for a few minutes. and anyway i don't think he knew Rebecca and me were texting back and forth. and the worst part was i couldn't concentrate because of all that eye candy.


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wednesday

on tuesday night, i saw the gay guy again at the library of course. he was studying for organic chemistry and me and my friend were studying for general chemistry. and we started to refer to him as butt guy. he's really attractive, but damn hes fucking gay =[. i really wished he wasn't.



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tuesday!! (sorry this is so late =[ )

so on monday night i was living in the library. and there was this guy with great taste in music. so i told him that i love that song. i dont remember what the song was, but one of the songs he was listening to was gimme more by britney spears. then he got up and had a great ass and wore designer jeans. so i assumed he was gay =[.



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