lust

so im in major lust. like it's so not me and so unhealthy. like i don't know what to do with myself. my friends keep making fun of me for obsessing so much. and i know it's not right, but what do i do? like i just wanna fuck him once. i mean if it's good then maybe again, but i really just wanna do it once with him. im sooo obsessed like i was legit shaking, it's so bad. today i told my friend Hanah about him, and she saw him and gave me a condom. like seriously what do i do with myself? and Rebecca and her best friend, Geoffery, keep making fun of me: the shaking, the obsession, and everything else. i can't take this anymore. i need to do something, but i don't know what to do. i can't think straight and i leave on friday, fml.



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