ughhhh

okay. so this is getting beyond ridic. last night i had another dream. Rebski was in this one, as was Brian. so me and Rebski were in med school together, and i believe we were in New York City, and Brian wanted to visit me because apparently i hadn't seen him in forever. so i told him to come up after the huge exam Rebski and i were having. and so he did. and normally Rebski is all about NOT drinking sorrows away, but this time her and i were drinking our sorrows away. and there were some other people with us, who i couldn't recognize and/or don't remember. and me and Rebski lived really close to each other. so her, me, and Brian walked back together, and boy were we drunk out of our minds. and i should mention that Brian had a serious girlfriend, because i asked him when they were gonna get married. and anyway. i slept with Brian, which i guess could be blamed on the alcohol; even though i would never do that, even if i was that drunk...well id like to think that. and then the next morning i couldn't remember shit. and we fucked again. and that time there wasn't any alcohol. i wouldn't do that. so i have no clue what these dreams mean. but someone please help me. because this is driving me crazy!



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ughhh fuck my dreams

i am going completely insane. i swear. this is beyond fucking ridic. i haven't had dreams like this since i don't know maybe four five years ago. and now this shit needs to stop, like for real. last night i had the opportunity of having ANOTHER dream. and this time i was a homewrecker. and sadly i've already kinda been there, done that. kinda being i was fucking this friend of mine, and then he got a girlfriend. but she said it was too early in their relationship to have sex, so i continued to fuck him. and so yeah but once they were doing it i was out of the picture. and the weird thing is i didn't feel bad about that. but in my dream i felt TERRIBLE about it. i can't remember exactly what happened, but damn i felt bad. i kept telling Brian that we can't even though both of us wanted to. what i really want to know is what the fuck do these dreams mean; they are driving me fucking insane.



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Katie time

so last night i went to the movies with Katie! we saw Killers, with Katherine Heigl and Ashton Kutcher. and omg omg omg sooooo good! i suggest everyone should go see it. it's just soooo fucking good. and i told Katie about the creepy dreams i've been having lately and she thinks that one of them has to do with Maddie, which i completely agree with. and these dreams won't stop. and they are driving me INSANE. ughhhhhh i can't do this anymore. oh and my dad drank one of Brian's redbulls, but that's just Brian's fault for not seeing me earlier. other than the dreams life is good!



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JHU time

so last night i was at a party at JHU. and ummm it was decent. i normally don't go to dorm parties, because i go to school in nyc. so we just go out and stuff. but it was kinda fun. and like always i did something stupid. that's like always a given with me. but anyway. he wanted a screwdriver, and what did i give him a shark bite. haha i felt sooo smart. i really do know how to make my drinks lol. i promise! and i stayed there for the night and came back like an hour ago. and i have work in an hour. yay!



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dreams and dreams

so once again i had the same dreams last night. and it's sooooooo fucking annoying like for real they NEED to stop. this really all i have time to day right now. because i am about to go out, so i will talk about what happens hopefully tomorrow!



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dreams

for some reason i forgot to post yesterday but the night before i had ANOTHER weird dream about Brian. we were hanging out and then the next thing i knew i was outside his house driving my car crazily around his cul-de-sac. it was sooo weird. and he was outside his house getting into his car and was completely ignoring me. so i got out and yelled at him for a good good good while. and then i woke up. and i had the other dream again. so im getting really freaked out. does anyone know what either of the dreams mean??



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life and it's strange things

so last night i had the strangest dream ever possible. Brian was over at my house at around one or two in the morning because he wanted to talk about stuff going on in his life. and we talked for like ever; i don't remember what was going on in his life. all i remember is telling him he needs to get some fucking shit taken care off. and then at like three my parents start to roll up the drive way. and im like ill just tell them Courtney had to leave her car here. but Brian had to ruin it by not hiding, so my parents saw him and asked him why he was there. and he said in the most depressing voice ever fucking possible "i just needed some life help" or something along those lines. and then i woke up.
the scary thing about this is sometimes my dreams come true. so at 7:30 in the morning before i left for my fucking calculus class i texted Brian, "Hey i know its mad early but are okay? Im not trying to be creepy or anything, i just had the strangest dream about you last night." and he told me he was fine and work is taking over his life.
also today, calculus started =[. i really am not looking forward to this shit. like seriously, the woman teaching it can't even speak english and she's a second year graduate student. there is something wrong with that. after that i had to do some random shit around campus, parking permit, j-card, getting my textbook...you get the flow. then i came home, bought the book off of Half for $60 and not $130. and then went to Courtney's house and then to Tutti Frutti. then i went back to her house and we watched this movie based on Dragon Ball-Z, which was decent.



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