Grandma

tonight no parties, no drinks, and no drunk texting. just me, myself, and i, maybe some friends, a movie or two, and some other stuff.
today's post isn't going to be my usual post. it's about someone i miss dearly, my grandma. she past away when i was eight or nine. and sometimes i really wish that she was still around. when my parents have heated arguments, i just wish i could drive up to Philly and see her. i don't know why but lately i keep thinking about her. maybe it's because i can't stand dealing with my parents or maybe it's because i wish i spent more time with her or maybe it's just something else. when i think back to the days when she was here with us, all i can think of are happy times. i remember as a kid my parents and i would go up to Philly. and there was this pizza place near where they used to live, that had the best pizza ever. and the five of us would sit around the table and just talk. the five of us being my dad, my mom, my grandpa, my grandma, and me. sometimes we would spend the night. damn i really miss her. sometimes there are things that i just can't talk to my mom about, and i want to talk to my grandma. i want to know whether or not im doing the right thing, whether or not my thinking is right, whether or not i need to do anything different. i just need some advice sometimes and i know my grandma would be able to help me. i miss her so fucking much.

grandma, id like to think you are reading this; and whether or not i showed how much i loved you before, just know i miss you soo much and love you even more. i love you.



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