Mike.

there are some people in your life who you meet and then you realize how amazing they are. you realize it a day late and a dollar short. there is one guy i know who i really respect. most guys that i know sleep around which i don't mind at all, but this guy is pretty awesome. he only slept with one girl which i think is pretty amazing. im sure he has had his chances but just refused. he's really attractive. but i just think that is really sweet. he is so sweet its unbelievable. he cares so much about others and likes to put his friends before him, which i respect so much. he is also one of the funniest people i know. and always knows how to put a smile on my face. no matter how fucked up my day is he knows how to get my smile out. and not just me, anyone and everyone. and damn i love him. im really gonna miss not seeing him at NYU. so Mike im not sure whether or not you read this, and im pretty sure you don't but if you do, just know how much i love and respect you. you are truly a wonderful and any girl is lucky to be with you.



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Brian the fucking motherfucker.

fucking Brian. hes such a fucking motherfucker! he was supposed to come over today, but since i am typing this know, i think you all know he is not here and did not come over today. he isn't here because his mom found a 30 in his room and got pissed as fuck. anyway. i did see Lisa today which was very nice. got i miss her and love her. and tomorrow is my last day of work for the summer. =[. i love work....for the most part that is. so ill have more time to see everyone. i can't wait till i get up to new york city!! only like 12 days left!


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Paul.

today i hung out with Paul. for those that don't know i fucking love Paul. and i hadn't seen him since like october maybe november. damn i missed him being in my life. and so far the no drinking is going well. anyway. Paul and i talked about everything fucking possible. his hookups, my hookups, and pretty much everything in between. such a fucking awesome kid.



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day four.

i don't remember if i mentioned this. but since friday night/saturday morning i have not had a single drink. Rebecca left for Canada on Saturday and i told her i wouldn't get drunk until she got back. and today is day four. and so far i am successful. it hasn't been that hard because every night im hanging out with my friends so it's really working out. =]



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Katie time

today i hung out with my girl Katie. it was mad fun. we just sat and talked and watched friends and then decided at 10 to watch Avatar. it was the first time for both her and me. and also her sister Jenny. and for those that don't know, that is one long ass movie. it was decent. not the greatest not the worst, but decent. although the special effects were extremely extremely extremely well done. anyway. it was just really nice catching up with her and her family.



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drunk driving.

if there is one thing in the world i hate, that would be drunk drivers. i fucking hate them. and people who drive drunk need to learn some shit. i've had sooo many friends die too young because of this ridiculous shit. and it's to the point where i can't fucking deal with it.
when i was 14 my best friend and her family were coming to visit my family and me. she never made it to me. at fucking 11:30 in the goddamn motherfucking morning someone was drunk and didn't stop at the red light and hit my best friends car head on. all four of them passed away. that was the worst time of my life.
i don't have any respect for people that drink and drive. none whatsoever. they need to learn something. they themselves don't need to do something, but they should learn from some other person's experience(s).
it's never too late to change.


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Steve Dankos.

Steven Joseph Dankos. i know you're looking down at the world from where you are. you're in a better place. today i saw this movie, Charlie St. Cloud, and it really reminded me of you. during the entire movie i was thinking about you and how sometimes life just doesn't do justice. Steve, i miss you soo much. i miss seeing you at parties and chilling with you and how you made everyone laugh soo soo soo much. you're really missed. im so glad i had the opportunity to meet and know you. you were and are one of the nicest guys out there. we had many good times. damn i wished you had called me that awful night. you know i would have come to you so fast. i love you and miss you so much.
you're forever loved and always in our hearts.
R.I.P.


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